Counting down to the day where a new phase of life starts.

Yes, i am back to compain!! hahaz..
i did try to pack, and i am halfway there already..

Did my last shift today at the cafe.. i am so going to miss workign there.
jus love the ppl, and the working environment..
well well.. thats life..
people come, and people go.
I am jus one of the many who is leaving..

back to bitching about the amount of stuff i have.
i Did a rough tabulation of the amount of clothes i have. haha.. i shall list it..

~4 Jackets and 1 Blazer
~9 Cardigans & Vest
~8 Button Down Shirts
~10 Long Sleeves Tee Shirts
~8 Polo-tees
~10 Singlets
~25 Tee-Shirts

Those are only the tops. haha.. the list continues..

~6 Pair of Jeans
~1 Jumper
~2 Formal Pants
~2 Short Shorts
~6 Berms & Dancing Pants
~2 Track Pants
~4 Board Shorts

and those are the bottoms..
haha.. of course its not the end..
i have various random stuff like..
~Scarfs
~Ties
~Belts
~Pyjamas
~Socks
~Underwear..

yes yes..
and the list go on..

Basically, I have more stuff than expected, and i now face the problem of putting everything into one huge luggage. but well. i will work on it..

And yes, i have quite a few Bags too!! lolx..

talking about bags, i bought myself, my very 1st LV bag as a graduation gift.
yes its authentic, and yes its not cheap.
but i worked for it.. so yeah, jus a form of reward..

enough about packing..
i am now in school trying to upload the photos i have taken in the past few months on to facebook.
reason why i am in school is because the internet is a lot faster, and friendlier.. and i get less distracted.. lolx..
Thats all the crap i have for now.
Its the last day of NOV already.
One more month, and its gonna be 2009 already!! OMFG!!



301108, SUN, 1935hrs.

Feeling totally carrie bradshaw and SATC.

I really should be packing my stuff, for it to be brought home soon. like really soon.

Time flies, and the holiday period which i am having, is kinda of over soon.

As i tried to pack..

i really did try..

it started to amaze me, how much stuff i actually do have, for a guy. lolx..

and i started to relate myself to carie bradshaw from sex and the city.

the clothes and shoes that i have, is like all i am worth.

i literally have no savings. and thus, these are my next most prized possessions. lolx..

and i did take a few photos to share wit u the amount of stuff i have, of course, its not really fantastically, jus some snap shots.

This is the awesome wadrobe i have in my room. its really huge, but its jus nice for me. haha..

and i have decorated the exterior. so every morning, i wake up to some beautiful images smiling at me..

But when u start to open the wadrobe, the nightmare begins..

i need to have a disclaimer..

I AM A GUY!! SO I AM ENTITLED TO BE MESSY!! lolx...

jus check out the interior of the not so fierce wadrobe..

And before i carry on wit clothes, i didn't realise i have so many foot wear, until i out them all together. lolx.

and there u have, i have a total of 8 pairs of shoes.

I don even noe ihave 8 pairs.. like seriiously.. i so wanna name them..

1.) Adidas shoes for dancing (Blue, with orange strips.) believe it or not, this was a birthday present for my 20th birthday, and it has been wit me for ages.

2.) Springfield Sneakers (Springfield is one of my favourite brands, but it is not available in AUS. I bought this pair of sneakers b4 i flew here, cause they were realy comfortable. But the original white colour, is almost gone, cause yes, i don have the habit of washing my shoes. lolx.)

3.) Black Leather Shoes (Leather shoes are a must have for men, due to many occassions that u will need to wear them. I got this pair in AUS from a shop called BETTS. i love the shoes they have, its pretty nice and affordable.)

4.) Cotton on shoes (its cheap, and its red. thats why i bought it. the end of the story.)

5.) Army Boots (hahahahaha.. i brought it here so i can wear it to work. Its slippery in the kitchen and stuff. I threw away my safety boots away, so the army boots was the next best thing i have, and i don have to pay a single cent for it!)

6.) Asics black high cut shoes with golden strips ( 22d Birthday present from the frens in AUS. And yes, i am still loving it.)

7.) Adidas running shoes ( i bought this pair of shoes, right after i sign up for gym membership, to motivate myself to exercise. and yes , i made very good use of it.. i didn't put it to waste. I love adidas for its comfort and style.)

8.) Adidas High cut, sand and Maroon colour ( Yes, as introduced earlier on, this was one of the birthday present i go this year by my frens in AUS yet again. lolx.)

On top of the 8 pairs of shoes, i have 3 pairs of flops..

2 from Havianas, and 1 which was also a gift from my colleagues, that has the print of the Australian flag on it. it was so funy.

but well..

jus the foot wear alone, i think i already outdone a lot of other guys that i noe. haha..

and guess wat, the footwear alone could already fetch me about $1k.. lolx..

i am prety happy with wat i have. i never worry about not having any shoes to wear, or to match wit my clothes.. haha..

wellwell, tats all the crap i have for now.

jus try to see how much clothes i have.

but i am too lazy to count. jus too much.

and yes, to sidetrack a bit.

i got back my results yesterday.

and i didn't get straight distinctions this time.

the fucking paper which i was so worried about, didnt give me any problems as i passed it, and i got a 5 for it.

it was really the downfall this semester..

te other 3 courses gave me 2 high distinctions and one distinction.

which was pretty decent.

and i my overall GPA was still kept above 6.

at 6.25 now.. i think.

and yes, i am in the dean's list, which is most important..

i am trying not to think about it, and focus on being happy cause i am graduating soon. reall soon. haha.

I am quite a survivor afterall..

Good Job SunShine.

271108, THU, 2227hrs.

A holiday, which is not really a holiday.

I haven blog for a while..
despite being on "holiday period".
lolx..

there is a lot running through my head. despite being on holiday..

well, i still work occasionally at the cafe..
i have to settle some tax refund stuff, which i am close to giving up. its jus irritating.
i have to "try" to meet up wit aussie frens, which i am also giving up too.
cause planning time wit them, pisses me off.
well, and i need to start packing which i haven.
time flies when u r relaxing.
don ask me why..
can't the time relax too?! why must Time work so hard!!

oh ya, btw, i have ordered a LV bag for myself..
and i was really excited when i oredered it, like 10 days ago..
but today, i feel damn sian alreayd.
its like the bag will never arrive in time, and i will not be able to buy it.
it sux. cause i wan it so badly..

and the bag is pretty ex, but i calculated the amount of money i earned here as a casual labour,
and it total up to about $6k.. so i reckon, all of these money will be used to pay for my bag, and the 3 trips i took here to sydney, melbourne and cairns.
but well, i must say it was all worth it.. lolx..

i am so lazy to pack now.
i have so much stuff, i noe i should get started really soon..
but then really.
i reckon its all clothes i am going to bring back.
i can like, open a stall soon..
and i am someone, who finds throwing away clothes extremely hard.
they are like my babies, even those cheapos one. don ask me why.
i jus don like to throw them away.

well.. thats all for the random stuff in my life now..
having mixed feelings going home to SG now..
its pretty scary.
having the pleasure of my own room here, things will be different when i am back.
i was even thinking, if i should stay over at my dads place, if things got bad.
like, i can't stand being in the same room as my mum.
nothing wrong wit her, but well, me being a scorpio, need a lot of personal space..
especially when i am like already 23 this year la.

AIyah, all these, i shall worry when i am back..

and At the moment, i am home alone, cause all 5 of my other housemates, have all left.
damn it, its quiet and lonely.. seriously..
damn sian..
but well.. lets hope things will be better tomolo..
i must learn to be positive..



231108, SUN, 2245hrs,

Go Scorpio!!

Talk about mood swings..
I was so freaking depressed a few hours ago..
and now i am feeling so much better.
lets jus share some reasons why..

was chatting to a new scorpio fren i made on Facebook..
lol.. sincere and nice guy..
and he is already attached, so we are jus plain frens, to share and chat..
and he is one of the most positive scorpios, who was so patient in cheering me up jus now.
i swear, i am like the total opposite..
Inpatient and pessimistic.. lolx..
but well, i must say it was nice talking to him..
i haven even met him in real life actually..
he is in Singapore..
and he works as an accountant.. lolx.. scorpio and accounting. that is so not matching..
yes, he was one of the reasons i feel better..

the 2nd was, i was chatting wit a mate who has also finished her exams today, and we both took the crappy exam together..
and then we were trying to not talk about the depressing exam..
so we switch to horoscopes..
and as she said, i noe a lot about libras (cause my ex is a libra), she wan to noe more about scorpios..
and she send me this link..
http://www.elore.com/Astrology/Study/scorpio.htm

And after reading it, i must say it has a very accurate despcription of scorpios.
and after reading it, i feel empowered..
like, yes i do have all those strong qualities in me..
and i noe i can survive all these crap..
and i jus wan the old me back..

Strong, Ambitious, Extreme, Motivated..
Where is the scorpio inside me?!?
I noe i am more than who i am now..
and i noe i can be a lot more, and a lot better.

so i am pushing myself to stay positive (although its hard, cause its jus me to be negative)..
and i jus need to push myself harder.. forward,..
through this crappy phase..


131108, THU, 0205hrs

Disgusted.

I am disgusted wit myself..
I am disgusted wit the paper i took today.
I am disgusted by the fact tt i am risking a fail today..
I am disgusted by the fact tt even if i pass, its only going to be a "4"..
I am disgusted by how lousy i feel now..
I am disgusted wit the feeling of depression now..
I am disgusted by how all this is ending..
I am disgusted by how i even let myself end up in this state..



121108, WED, 2219hrs

HAPY BURFDAE.. AGAIN..

Yes, a year has passed..

and b4 writing this post, i went to read wat i wrote last year.

its the same thing whereby i bitch having to study during my birthdays..

cause my birthdays are always during the exam period..

damn sian la..

and moreover, had a paper today, and i actualy woke up late, and was almost late for the paper..

bad bad experience.

but thank god, i was alright..

but jus tired..

did literallyno studyng today..

and was really grateful and glad that my mates in ipswich planned a surprise birthday for me.

despite being quite popular here *ahem*, its true, i really never epect any kind of celebration, cause like half the ppl here are having exams tomolo.

except for some other few, who are more free...

and i was playing boardgame wit my 3 of my groupmates, and also answering phone call from SG, wishing me hapy birthday..

so when 12 am struck, and i don even noe it is already 12 am, i heard a group of ppl singing HAPY BURFDAE!!! and yes i was touched..

i was thinking, they should be stressed out of their brains now, or they should be sleping..

but they al made the effort to come wish me happy birthday..

touched touched touched..

and one of my mate commented "its like the whole ipswich is here"..

lolx... cause there was realy quite a lot of ppl, and was glad to see everyone smiling..

the whole atmosphere, was jus filled wit stres previously in all houses..

so.. done wit 2 exams, and 2 more to go..

and they are jus crucial..

but i have no mood to study.

had made plans for diiner, for the next 2 days..

and i am jus gonna enjoy myself..

I bought myself a pair of adidas limited edition high cut shoes last weekend, and my frens decided to sponsor me, and treat tt as a BDAY present for me.

and i don mind.. since i am not really a surprise kinda of person..

and i noe wat i wan, so its easy to get presents for me..

i will tell u wat i wan.. lolx..

And on top of that, got a new tee-shirt that says "Straight" on it.. lolx..

and also a sash, think pink colour, and says, "happy 18th birthday"..lolx..

i swear these 2 galfrens who got me these, really noes wat ticks me, and makes me laugh..

so yeah, had a great time generally..

"Move on, Be strong, Stay Focus & Love everyday."

i wrote this on my blog last year.. and i decided to post it again..

and yes, i feel like i can do it..

i am so blessed...

071108, FRI, 0124hrs

Misery Loves Company.

I haven blog for ages, but i am doing it now to kinda of de-stress..
Jus an excuse to slack actually..

Final Final exams in like 2 days..
This semester has been a hard one.
Maybe its jus because i have lost focus, and not try as hard as i could.
The possibility of straight distinctions, are like so so so... sad....
I am not that bad..
but i don wan to be average.. or jus good..
i wan to be great..
to be extraordinary..

but i have obviously let myself down this semester..

No doubt, i must say, this semester has also brought a lot of frens closer to me..
I am always blessed to have special ppl around me..
The poly mates that i have here in Aus wit me, are still great, and caring..
and no matter how rarely we meet one another, i realised, the bond is still as strong.
similarly, this semester i have also tried to improve my relationship wit some of the other frens in uni..
yes its very PR of me.. but then, its jus a natural thing.. which i can jus naturally switch on.
and lets jus say its god gift that, i can easily attract ppl to me..

As my life as an under grad draws closer to an end, the feeling of uncertainty strikes..
its really scary..
the feeling of uncertainty that i hate..
and also.. the life here, that i have got use to..
will change when i go back to Singapore..

But i reckon some things never change too...
the ever cynical and perssimistic me..

jus yesterday when studying wit my housemates, she said this very familiar sentence which i have long forgot..
"Misery Loves COmpany".
and i was like.. OMG.. i haven heard that for such a long time..
and i did feel less miserable these days, despite having to slave under those books..
cause i believe, at least the exams, kept me focus on what i am doing..

and when i tried not to think about it..
as i was jus listening to random songs from my play list, the song "Misery" by good charlotte played, and there it was again.. the line..

"Misery Loves Company.."
and blah blah blah..

it was then i realised misery jus knocked on my door again..
and yes, like a gentlemen, i invited misery in again..

But this time, maybe, perhaps, i know how to handle Misery better..
After all, it has kept me company in most parts of my life.

I should go back to studying now...

Way behind schedule..

I will do it..
I must do it..



031108, MON, 2105hrs