Irritating jerk!! GEMINIS!!!

Ok. i haven found someone really irritating, until TODAY!!
yes my new housemate.. the guy. who shares the toilet wit me.
A gemini. which already says it all.

he has like one article review to do. and he bitches about it so much it pisses me off cause i have like more then 10 articles to read and then refernce it for my essay, proposal and report.
yes i have like 3 assignments..no infact, more than tt..

and his pathetic artivle review is onli 1500 words when my mininum word count for a single esay is like 200o words wit 10 fucking references.

he took so many bloody fucking days to find an article, when there are zillion of it online.

and he asked me to teach him how to search for articles, after i did, and he said he found ONE. he said he didn't do it my way!! FINE!! do it ur way then.. pathetic jerk.

when i woke up early, did my jogging today, and also my lunch, tt guy jus woke up at about 12pm in the noon. and as he walks past my room, i was youtubing my faviourite top model cycle 10, and he jus walks in and said, "U R WASTING UR TIME!!"
for chris sake..
i do wit my time more then u..
and me being me, i said i woke up a lot earlier then u, and had already done a lot more stuff..
and when i asked him how was his artivle review coming, he was like NOT DONE YET!! after days of TRYING to do.. and BITCHING about it!! OMG, nothing is like done..

i haven done a lot, but i am sure i had done more then him, had a more happening life cause i had went out wit frens, whom he had none cause most of his "Frens" are not around tis holiday break, and i work in the cafe, and i dance too!! my time is freaking not wasted, in fact i lead a very "happening life" here. cause i got so much to do, as compared to him!!

and wats worse...
he walks into my room, touched my things, took my cap, and tried it on, and said he can't wear cap and hats and stuff cause he looks bad..
and then he ask me to try it on (Imagine all these while i was youtubing TOP MODEL!! HOW DARE HE!!)
and after i tried it on, he gave me such a fucking fake smile, i don even feel like looking, and continued watching my top model.
and guess wat, he jus sits on my bed and tried to find topic to talk to when i obviously is NOT INTERESTED!! LAME SHIT!!!

then i told him i wan to go to school after tt to do work.
and the jerk went like "even if u go to the school, u wouldn't be doing work too"
SERIOUSLY!! HOW DARE HE!! and i got so pissed i jus kept quiet and went away.
i so wanted to say this "at least i don have to entertain ur nonsense in school!!"

alright but tt was the noon. and now its nite time..guess wat..
today is saveing the earth thingy, and we are all encouraged to off the lights for one hour from 8-9pm.
and i am all for it since its for earth..
and when i was watching my tv at 6.30, he came to tell me tt we should off the tv too at 8 pm..
FUCK!! its onli the lights boi!!! and he was like, the news said tt we should off the tv and the lights!! OK FINE!!!
then i was like i will use my laptop to youtube then..
and he shut up..
as it turn 8pm jus now, he walked past my room and said i should off my laptop, i got so pissed i asked him to get out, and wantd to say this "the news didn't say we should off our laptops!!"
but i didn't. and i jus shut the door and locked it..

u noe wat, i am so going out to the living room now to bitch, cause they are still fucking watching the tv!!!

fuck those irritating bastards, i am so going to the school tomolo, cause i am sick of seeing his face..
there are so much more tabout him tt irritates me..
like the food issue, where he bitches about the things i eat, and he bloody ell eats way more unhealthy things then me..
its true tt i ear more then u, and i am fatter then u.. but i noe i am fucking more healthy, cause i don eat instant noodles everyday!!
i am onli 2 kg fatter then u!! and i am going to be slimmer then u one bloody day..
u fucking smoker!! die early..

Enough of bitching.. bye.



190308, SAT, 2017hrs

Calling someone fat, doesn't make me slimmer.

This is often how i feel at nite. like now.
no mood. no drive. no strength. no life.

Emo. seriously emo.

Not acting, not posing. jus damn fucking emo.

its been 2 weeks since i last blog.
here i am again, thinking i should jus update a little.

School is fine. more work coming up.
reports, essays, proposals. i got them all.
how can i forget about my favourite presentations plus tests and exams.
not expecting a lot tis sem.
but i noe i am still gonna be fine.
jus don wan to add on additional pressure.

still trying to consistently dance every TUE and WED, although occasionally, school drains me out so much, i jus can't afford the time and strength to traval to dance. which takes more than 2 hrs to and fro.

got a part time job.
3rd day today at the cafe tt i interviewd for. didn't thought i would get it.
but after some encouragement from frens, i decided to call them, to kinda of pester them, and guess it paid off.
and guess wat, the are paying me A$17 an hour. which is like $22 sing!!
i am happy, and seriously the work, is jus like gelare. nothing terribly bad as compared to the toilet washing i have to do last time.

well. and now the most emo part of the post.
luv luv luv.
the guy who picked me up. the st lucia guy as one of my fren calls him, cause he stays at st lucia.
is kinda of officially dead.
haven seen him for more than 2 weeks.
since the "i don think we should get involve" incident, my heart did die a little.
asked him out on easter, i got rejected.
asked him out tomolo, i got rejected.
so can someone kindly tell me how should i feel??

jus over the easter break, i went out wit a group of gay ppl.
remember the dinner i had wit a hugh bunch of gay ppl, which i really didn't enjoy, yeah, some of them asked me out to club over the easter break.
and honestly, i went because of this cute guy i talked to tt nite.
and wanting to see him badly, my stupidity got the better of me.
cause basically, i noe nothing will happen between us, logically speaking, but emotionally speaking, the desperate me jus can't refuse the opputunity to jus try, and perhaps fall in luv.
but yeah, as i already guessed it, it was nothing. a no from him in exact.
tall, slim, cute and pretty smart.
pretty much wat i like, but not much in common for us i guess.
well, jus another passer by in my life i suppose.

disappointed yes, sad a little, devestated no.

i wonder if i am growing "stronger" through all these failures, or am i jus being "heartless".

some frens don believe how bad things are for me when it comes to relationship, but let me stress.
being HOT, doesn't mean i get loved. ( As U can see, my self esteem hasn't really been affected),
it jus means people are jus scared to be involved wit us. (And i think these people are jus insecure.)

well watever i noe. a lot of slaps on my face now, i can so feel it.
yeah well.. who cares.. how i hope someone can slap me silly and awake.

jus finish watching "mean gals" on TV.
a pretty good show which i must admit i have watched more than a couple of times.
but i don get sick of it.
and then there was this part where the lead, lindsay lohan(who is so jaded now) said these stuff..

"calling someone stupid doesn't make me smarter. calling someone fat, doesn't make me slimmer. calling someone fugly, doesn't make me prettier."

it was something like tt, and i think its so fucking good.
tts why i rather call myself fat, then someone else fat.
i jus hope i can be HOT inside out.
still working on it.
but i must admit food is like the main source of comfort for me now.
and way too much chocolate consumption these few days. u jus can't imagine how i much sugar i am takingin everyday.

well, a long post, guess it will make up for these 2 weeks of disappering.
got to go now, and hope life treats me well.
looking forward to maroon 5 concert next WED wit my uni mates.
byebye.



280308, FRI, 2256hrs.

Weekly Jogging Routine shall start today.

alright. i am finally back once again.

here i am n a friday afterrnoon, wit no class to attend, and no oprah to watch..

so prepared a bowl of pasta, and a glass of juice, and sat infront of my com..



while reading my frens blog to catch up on the happenings around the world, i decided tt i should blog too..

nothing much in particular, but maybe some updates of my life.



Slept till late this morning, like 11am, and thus when i woke up, i decided to use the long forgotten treadmill the our landlord owns.

and there i was jogging for onli about 25 mins, and covering onli about 2.7km, i decided it was time to rest.

not a lot of work out, but still i perspired like crazy due to the scorching noon heat..

went to cool, down, checked my mail and some daily other routine, and then showered.

lunch preparation was next, and then now here i am blogging.

how random i noe. but tt is life for me in aussie u noe..



some other updates include going for a job interview at a cafe on WED and anxiously waiting for their call today, which they were suppose to tell m if i got it.

but apparently, its already 1.30pm in the noon, and no news yet, i had kinda of given up, and learn not to expect so much.

i am not tt great after all..

so this probably means more job hunting for money.

cause i really don feel good spending my mum's money all the time.



not much of a relationship going on here.

the st lucia guy tt i was dating back last year, and the one who came to pick me up seems to be going through some mood swings again.

i am not really expecting any love to go on between us, but then, when he said the words "i don think we should get involve again", it pierced through my heart.

a feeling i grew accustomed to..

no more tears this time.

jus sighs of disappointment..

but i am trying to get over it, so jus give me sometime.



to think about it, i have loads of other ppl wanting and willing to care for me more than he does.

so why do i still stubbornly stick to him? i don noe..

guess why tis is called luv..



i realised this year, or tis semester, i have lost a lot of my aggresiveness..

like i don push myself hard enough to study and score..

i still study hard, but jus not tt hard on myself anymore i guess.

i wonder if this is good or bad, cause sometimes, too much pressure jus back fires, but now, i think i am too slag..

therefore, i think i should go to school to catch up on my work later..

a couple hours of revision and research.



internet at home is crap..

someone must be Downloading hugh amount of stuff..

so i am quite pissed.

thank god its working fine this afternoon..



room is in quite a mess, unlike last sem when it was more neat.

books and notes pilling up everywhere..

no mood to pack either, and i can jus feel tt the whole place is terribly dirty, which is bad.



I still luv dancing like crazy..

doing it twice a week now on TUE and WED nite.

hoping tt one day, i can dance my life away, forgetting all the bothers me..



alright then..

the random stuff shall stop here..

and i shall pack and go to school, to revise..



i am still elarning to be at peace wit myself.

to not let misery get me, to not let depression get me, to not let stress get me, to not let loneliness get me..

its so hard, but i guess all these takes time and i am taking these few months to learn all of tt.







140308, FRI, 1336hrs

Back from sydney.

Hey, i noe i haven blog for ages..
no excuse, jus lazy.
have lods of pics, but don noe wat to upload too.

jus came back from a 4 day trip to sydney, which was really really great.
thanks alot to the 2 mates who went wit me, and oso the many great ppl i met in sydney.
which includes some guys i use to date and stuff..
oh well, sydney is jus so much better then brisbane, in terms of "fun" quality..

alright, i need to go watch tv..
so i shall continue some other time eh..
tis is to ensure ppl tt i am not dead yet..



030308, MON, 1926hrs