Misery Loves Company.

I haven blog for ages, but i am doing it now to kinda of de-stress..
Jus an excuse to slack actually..

Final Final exams in like 2 days..
This semester has been a hard one.
Maybe its jus because i have lost focus, and not try as hard as i could.
The possibility of straight distinctions, are like so so so... sad....
I am not that bad..
but i don wan to be average.. or jus good..
i wan to be great..
to be extraordinary..

but i have obviously let myself down this semester..

No doubt, i must say, this semester has also brought a lot of frens closer to me..
I am always blessed to have special ppl around me..
The poly mates that i have here in Aus wit me, are still great, and caring..
and no matter how rarely we meet one another, i realised, the bond is still as strong.
similarly, this semester i have also tried to improve my relationship wit some of the other frens in uni..
yes its very PR of me.. but then, its jus a natural thing.. which i can jus naturally switch on.
and lets jus say its god gift that, i can easily attract ppl to me..

As my life as an under grad draws closer to an end, the feeling of uncertainty strikes..
its really scary..
the feeling of uncertainty that i hate..
and also.. the life here, that i have got use to..
will change when i go back to Singapore..

But i reckon some things never change too...
the ever cynical and perssimistic me..

jus yesterday when studying wit my housemates, she said this very familiar sentence which i have long forgot..
"Misery Loves COmpany".
and i was like.. OMG.. i haven heard that for such a long time..
and i did feel less miserable these days, despite having to slave under those books..
cause i believe, at least the exams, kept me focus on what i am doing..

and when i tried not to think about it..
as i was jus listening to random songs from my play list, the song "Misery" by good charlotte played, and there it was again.. the line..

"Misery Loves Company.."
and blah blah blah..

it was then i realised misery jus knocked on my door again..
and yes, like a gentlemen, i invited misery in again..

But this time, maybe, perhaps, i know how to handle Misery better..
After all, it has kept me company in most parts of my life.

I should go back to studying now...

Way behind schedule..

I will do it..
I must do it..



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