3rd day of school. and i am still bored.

Thats me holding on to my dad' s hand.. one week b4 he pass away.

he was already bed ridden, and in a lot of pain at this stage..

did i mention his main cause of death was the collapsed of his lungs, but at this stage he had already got a mild stroke, heart attack, spreading of the cancer cells from the throat to the bones, and even tumor in his head.

Yes, i don even feel like thinking about the pain, to make matter worse, since he got his voice box remove last year, he couldn't even yell out his pain, but the expression on his face, its jus priceless..

It serves as a reminder to not smoke, and also drink less..

I have some questions for my dad after he left, but i don think i would ask him even if he is alive.

well. i am jus confused..

school has started and today marks the 3rd day..

She was in school wit her GF on the 1st day and i bumped into them..

today, i had a project discussion wit her, and her GF was there too..

and when we went to class today, her GF was there too..

How did i feel? Nothing..

How did she feel? I don noe..

How everything felt? Awkard.

ok there was a bloody blackout 5 mins ago, and now i am back typing again..

i swear this place is like some ulu place on earth..

blackouts.. OMG... that is so not fun..

anyway, its also strating to be freaking cold..

i reackon it will get worse..

and today, i had to drag myself out of bed to go to the gym, and i was so late, i only got 45mins left, b4 it closes..

and to my pleasant surprise, there was a really really HOT guy there..

he is like the person in charge, some sort of trainer, but i don use him. and i am too shy to talk to him.. seriuosly.. haha. but he is jus DAMN HOT!!..

oh well.. the only good thing that happen today..

and did i mention, i haven been to the gym for so long, and i think i did too much, i go giddy walking home, and i almost puke in the bath.. haha..

i am so weak.. i swear..

i think i jus need to get into the motion of things for now..

pick up where i left off, and be the same old fighter..

I am tougher then wat i think i am..

As long as i don feel tired... haha..

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