Cold, Lonely, Stress & Miserable.

I am back. wit some bad news..

Exams in 3 days time..
1st paper, cost accouting..
and that was wat i tried to study today. woke up and idd breakfast, then started studying at 10am.. only to fall asleep at 12pm..
woke up at 1pm, and watched oprah and do lunch, then continue studying, only to fall asleep at 5pm again..
woke up for dinner.. and i am stil studying cost accounting.
OMG.. i swear studying puts me to sleep..
AND the fact that i am feeling all cold, lonely, sad, emo and despearate, jus made me feel miserable..

I am having this immense craze over guys wit blond hair and blue eyes now..
thanx to King Peter from Narnia, and upcoming model, Tyler Bachtel, this craze has become an OBSESSION!!!
i swear. and as i recently got to noe some guy who have this feature..
i jus can't wait to bed him..
and he isn't my 1st anyway..
Oh Boi. the pleasure of staring into a pair of crystal blue eyes.. That is Driving me crazy!!
And i am so distracted, as i find myself googling and ogling at my wallpaper who is now filled wit the picture of Tyler Bachtel..
this model is ONE HOT THING!!!
He is only 23 and he is my height too.. BUT HIS EYES, HIS FACE, AND HIS BODY!!
He is indeed a gift from heaven.. haha.

oh well..
i am jus taking a break here, cause i seroiusly have no motivation to study. don ask me why.
I am so close to my straight distinctions this semester..
I really worked pretty hard..
and results so far, has been pretty satisfying.
and now at the last leg of the race, i kinda of have hit the wall..
where u jus lost all motivation, and the cold jus made my day worse..
all i wan to do now is hide under the sheets, or in my wardrobe, or maybe jus under the table and cry myself to sleep...

And reading the blogs of my mates in Singapore jus made me feel even more miserale, i swear..
I think its time i get back to some reading b4 i reweard myself wit more TV later..
I noe i can do well, I jus need to find the strength from within to overcome this barrier.
And lets jus say, everything in life now, is jus not making it easier..
How can i even shine, when there is no Sun?
Stop raining, and show me some warmth..
Hug me and look me in the eyes..
All I need now is that one motivation to complete this journey.


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