Boring X'mas....

I feel like Shit.
I am like rotting at home everyday, cause I really don have much money to spend when I go out.
Maybe the occasional gathering, I would splurge a little.
But other than that, even getting a coffee now at starbucks is worth a serious consideration.

Ok, since I have don have much going on in life. I shall bore myself with endless nonsense typing.

Few days back, I received an SMS from an ex student, whom honestly, is not one of my favourite. But it was a nice SMS. This was what she said:
“Hello, I’m S***ne from Co**l Secondary who play liuqin. Rmb me?! :) I want to thank you because you helped me get thru dsa (direct school admission) to T*****k JC!! I played eine kleine for audition which you taught us :) now I am in the chinese orchestra preparing for syf next year!! Thanks for your song n your teachings! :)”
There u have it, an SMS that made my day.
Identities and school names are protected..

And just yesterday, it was Christmas, and I was rotting at home the whole day.
Yes literally nothing to do. But who cares, wasn’t interested to go out, and be squeezed by the overcrowded population.
And on x’mas eve, I had no plans at all when I woke up.
I got really bored in the noon, and I decided to ask some one I jus knew online to go out in the evening.
Then right after I asked him, I regretted. Cause I realised I don’t even know how he looks like.
I only know the fact the he is scorpio and he is old. Like 45 years old.. faintz..
Then I asked myself, what the hell was I doing?!?!
Going on a blind date, on x’mas eve!! Not a good idea.

But since I promised, I went.
Lets just say the 1st look at him, was plain disappointment.
Then off we went to have some drinks cause by the time we met, it was already quite late due to the rain that had been going on the whole freaking day.
As we settled down in a pub, the conversation along the way, had already turn me off to a point of “WTF”.
We had beer at the Belgium place, and when I chose to have a fruit beer, cause I like it, he gave me a suggestion of having another nicer one.
And as I was too tired to debate, I jus said, “ok, anything”
We were in the pub for an hour plus.
Lets just say, thank god he did made the night better, when he started revealing more personal stuff about himself.
Lets just say, it was like the connection 2 scorpios had.
We were so thrilled to agree on how cunning, competitive, sarcastic, and ambitious the both of us were.
Depite the huge age gap of 22, I must say, we had a very decent chat (I attribute it to the scorpio personality once again).
Then after that, the pub was closing (to our shock, cause it was bloody x’mas eve)
Then we went to get some food, and had more drinks at another pub.
This time round, he insisted on wine (cause he is a wine fan, and I so hate it). In order to compromise, we had wine, but it was white, which suits my taste more.
We had one whole bottle, and both of us gulped it down in no time. I swear, it was fast.
Maybe he was trying to get me drunk, but actually, I could hold liquor much better than him.
And I did think he was more high than me.
We continued chatting and talking. And at the end of the night, we deicided to leave b4 x’mas at 11 plus, cause we both needed to catch the train, and we didn’t wan to be caught in the crowd after 12 midnight.
So the night ended with a simple hug, and I obviously showed no sign of interest towards him.
He got the signal, and he said he is not interested too cause I am BISEXUAL!! What nonsense!!
Anyway, think its just an excuse.. lolx..

On the way home, I kinda of countdown in the train, but only to myself.
When the clock strike 12, I almost wanted to shout MERRY CHRISTMAS on the train, but thank god I didn’t, cause like what my fren told me, this is Singapore, and you definitely be caught, and be fined for doing that.. lolx.
Yes, talk about adapting to life back here.
I jus hate how every one here is so bloody uptight, and the service industry, is jus plain fuck up.
SERVICE!!! ISSIT THAT HARD?!?!?!?!
What’s with ppl these days?!?!
I shall leave that for some other posts.
That’s all for now ;)


261208, FRI, 1641hrs

Packing up the baggage that is worth 1.5 years.

I remembered complaining about packing up my room and stuff in some of my previous posts.

THis above picture was taken when i 1st got back home in SG.

Don't ask me how i did it. but lets say, it was hell moving all these stuff back.

YES, everything u see if mine!!

Lets go through some of it.

THe huge bottom left luggage, and the one on the sofa, also on the left, contains all clothes.. and yes, both of these luggage already weighted like 40 plus KG.

THen the bottom middle, smaller luggage, contains most of my fragile stuff like CDs, some books, and toiletries like my perfume, and blah blah blah.

The one on the Bottom right, the big black one, is filled with my collection of shoes and foot ware, plus my caps and other accessories. and also some of the new buys i got at harbour town b4 i came back. i can;t believe i went shopping again. but it was for my CNY clothes, i must stop shopping back in Singapore..

Then you see my laptop back, and a White Plastic Bag which contains my Board game and some posters.

and also a black bag in the middle on the sofa, which contains the fragile stuff like my cups, and also my soft toys and blah blah blah.

and last but not least, my precious LV bag, in which i hand carry my important stuff.

haha.

honestly, when checking my 4 luggagges, the three on the bottom, and the one on the left, sitting on the sofa, my stuff alone is already about 80 KG..

plus the other hand carry stuff, it was about 20 KG..

thank god my mum, my uncle, aunty and 2 cousins were there to help, and i could ride my overweight stuff on them.

the 6 of us had a limit of 140 KG, but the overall check in was 166kg (yes, half of it was mine).. lolx..

but i didn't had to pay, the counter staff was damn nice.



anyway, yes, i threw away so much staff when packing..

and these was wat i brought back..



As i pack my room , yet again in SG, i have to start throwing away stuff again.

which is damn sian.

i hate doing it.

but i seriously have no place to store my things.

and its pissing me off.

i so need my personal space..

and i need space for my stuff.

haiz haiz haiz.







211208, SUN, 1623hrs

Another Emo Period.....

I haven blogged for ages.. well well.. I was busy..
And life has changed a lot. And lets jus say I am trying to adapt.
Once again, swimming in uncertainty. The feeling is horrible..
Upon returning to Singapore one week ago, I was lucky to have gotten an interview with Singapore Airlines, the 3rd day I am back.
I went, and I left.
I got through the 1st round which was a group interview, and yes, I am proud to say I did quite well.
I was in a group of 8, and I was the only one who got to the 2nd round.
The 2nd round was a general “looks” test.
I went into the room, was asked to walk from one end to the other end, in which I have no problem with.
But when the interviewer saw my face, she didn’t say much, but I knew she wasn’t too please.
And yes, after waiting outside for a couple of minutes, I was asked to leave as I didn’t pass the “skin test”.
I was disappointed, jus a little. But as the day goes by, I got more and more depressed over this failure.
Maybe I haven felt failure for a long time.
I was lucky, and I succeed in the things I do most of the time.
But not my 1st interview upon graduation.
Yes I am not going to give up, and I will try once again on the 17th Jan.
I know I have to get through it. I really have to focus this time. And make no mistakes.
The feeling of being home most days, and being jobless, is making me really depressed.
As I see my savings account deplete, I know I really need the job badly.
Its not helpful when the festive seasons are around the corner, and you don’t really have the mood to celebrate, just simply because I can’t afford to splurge..
When I came back, I had a visitor from Germany visit too..
He was an awesome guy, who decided to stop by SG to pay me a visit, since he was around the region for work, and also in BKK for fun (like all gay guys, BKK is like the gay heaven).
When he was here, we spent like 2 days together, and I was really attracted to him. And he was pretty attracted to me too.
He has a striking resemblance to the guy I was madly in love with back in Brisbane. Except that he has blond hair and blue eyes (a total deadly combo).
Moreover, he is 32 this year, but looks younger then his actual age, and not to say, very slim body, basically one that turns me on.
And yes, he is rich too, owns his own company, and is a boss who travels around the world to sell his products, and conduct training.
Flies 1st class, and a total gentlemen.
But well well, like I said, life is cruel.
We never get wat we wan.
I like him, he likes me.
But we are like 98573427234280940 miles apart.
I long to visit him some day, and he promises to return to visit some day too.
But whats the point?
We are jus friends at the end of the day.

As I job hunt, I long for a different working environment, and a different place to stay.
The urge of escaping SG just keeps getting stronger.
Honestly, I am back to an extremely vulnerable stage in life, whereby watching any movies, can move me to tears, or make me laugh like a crazy man.
Jus terribly unstable now.
I don think I am even thinking straight at times. I am like living in a world of fantasy.
I need a life.
I need to stay focus.
And I need myself back.


201208, SAT, 2138hrs