Another Emo Period.....
I haven blogged for ages.. well well.. I was busy..
And life has changed a lot. And lets jus say I am trying to adapt.
Once again, swimming in uncertainty. The feeling is horrible..
Upon returning to Singapore one week ago, I was lucky to have gotten an interview with Singapore Airlines, the 3rd day I am back.
I went, and I left.
I got through the 1st round which was a group interview, and yes, I am proud to say I did quite well.
I was in a group of 8, and I was the only one who got to the 2nd round.
The 2nd round was a general “looks” test.
I went into the room, was asked to walk from one end to the other end, in which I have no problem with.
But when the interviewer saw my face, she didn’t say much, but I knew she wasn’t too please.
And yes, after waiting outside for a couple of minutes, I was asked to leave as I didn’t pass the “skin test”.
I was disappointed, jus a little. But as the day goes by, I got more and more depressed over this failure.
Maybe I haven felt failure for a long time.
I was lucky, and I succeed in the things I do most of the time.
But not my 1st interview upon graduation.
Yes I am not going to give up, and I will try once again on the 17th Jan.
I know I have to get through it. I really have to focus this time. And make no mistakes.
The feeling of being home most days, and being jobless, is making me really depressed.
As I see my savings account deplete, I know I really need the job badly.
Its not helpful when the festive seasons are around the corner, and you don’t really have the mood to celebrate, just simply because I can’t afford to splurge..
When I came back, I had a visitor from Germany visit too..
He was an awesome guy, who decided to stop by SG to pay me a visit, since he was around the region for work, and also in BKK for fun (like all gay guys, BKK is like the gay heaven).
When he was here, we spent like 2 days together, and I was really attracted to him. And he was pretty attracted to me too.
He has a striking resemblance to the guy I was madly in love with back in Brisbane. Except that he has blond hair and blue eyes (a total deadly combo).
Moreover, he is 32 this year, but looks younger then his actual age, and not to say, very slim body, basically one that turns me on.
And yes, he is rich too, owns his own company, and is a boss who travels around the world to sell his products, and conduct training.
Flies 1st class, and a total gentlemen.
But well well, like I said, life is cruel.
We never get wat we wan.
I like him, he likes me.
But we are like 98573427234280940 miles apart.
I long to visit him some day, and he promises to return to visit some day too.
But whats the point?
We are jus friends at the end of the day.
As I job hunt, I long for a different working environment, and a different place to stay.
The urge of escaping SG just keeps getting stronger.
Honestly, I am back to an extremely vulnerable stage in life, whereby watching any movies, can move me to tears, or make me laugh like a crazy man.
Jus terribly unstable now.
I don think I am even thinking straight at times. I am like living in a world of fantasy.
I need a life.
I need to stay focus.
And I need myself back.
201208, SAT, 2138hrs
And life has changed a lot. And lets jus say I am trying to adapt.
Once again, swimming in uncertainty. The feeling is horrible..
Upon returning to Singapore one week ago, I was lucky to have gotten an interview with Singapore Airlines, the 3rd day I am back.
I went, and I left.
I got through the 1st round which was a group interview, and yes, I am proud to say I did quite well.
I was in a group of 8, and I was the only one who got to the 2nd round.
The 2nd round was a general “looks” test.
I went into the room, was asked to walk from one end to the other end, in which I have no problem with.
But when the interviewer saw my face, she didn’t say much, but I knew she wasn’t too please.
And yes, after waiting outside for a couple of minutes, I was asked to leave as I didn’t pass the “skin test”.
I was disappointed, jus a little. But as the day goes by, I got more and more depressed over this failure.
Maybe I haven felt failure for a long time.
I was lucky, and I succeed in the things I do most of the time.
But not my 1st interview upon graduation.
Yes I am not going to give up, and I will try once again on the 17th Jan.
I know I have to get through it. I really have to focus this time. And make no mistakes.
The feeling of being home most days, and being jobless, is making me really depressed.
As I see my savings account deplete, I know I really need the job badly.
Its not helpful when the festive seasons are around the corner, and you don’t really have the mood to celebrate, just simply because I can’t afford to splurge..
When I came back, I had a visitor from Germany visit too..
He was an awesome guy, who decided to stop by SG to pay me a visit, since he was around the region for work, and also in BKK for fun (like all gay guys, BKK is like the gay heaven).
When he was here, we spent like 2 days together, and I was really attracted to him. And he was pretty attracted to me too.
He has a striking resemblance to the guy I was madly in love with back in Brisbane. Except that he has blond hair and blue eyes (a total deadly combo).
Moreover, he is 32 this year, but looks younger then his actual age, and not to say, very slim body, basically one that turns me on.
And yes, he is rich too, owns his own company, and is a boss who travels around the world to sell his products, and conduct training.
Flies 1st class, and a total gentlemen.
But well well, like I said, life is cruel.
We never get wat we wan.
I like him, he likes me.
But we are like 98573427234280940 miles apart.
I long to visit him some day, and he promises to return to visit some day too.
But whats the point?
We are jus friends at the end of the day.
As I job hunt, I long for a different working environment, and a different place to stay.
The urge of escaping SG just keeps getting stronger.
Honestly, I am back to an extremely vulnerable stage in life, whereby watching any movies, can move me to tears, or make me laugh like a crazy man.
Jus terribly unstable now.
I don think I am even thinking straight at times. I am like living in a world of fantasy.
I need a life.
I need to stay focus.
And I need myself back.
201208, SAT, 2138hrs
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