"Success is going from failure to failure wit no loss of enthusiasm"

Today i wake up with a mind full of thoughts.. yes i am at home blogging.. maybe i should have more faith in my com at home.. its still usuable at certain times.. haha..
ok anyway i wan to share bout yesterday..
Yesterday was my company's DnD.. yup... at gallery hotell.. it was really fun.. lots of laughter and food was good... and i was quickly brought back to my DnD during poly times.. totally bring the house down cause we are so crazy..
anyway there were lots of awards and The best NSF for music departmet didn't go to me..l totally dissapointed but i know better that i got the most votes from my fellow colleagues jus tt i don carry my bosses' balls and i always speak my mind out whenever i think they are wrong. offending them in a ny poswsible wayi can... but tt was wat cause the award to g to someone extremely undeserving.. if it was anyone else, i would have felt so much better..
Then i question myself on whether i should be carrying balls more oftern, of should i retaliate even more towards my bosses. os should i treat it like nothing has happen...
well after thinking through, i guess it all boils down to one word.. INTEGRITY..
a big word i noe.. one tt was brought on to me by my favourite lecture in poly.. one word tt i thought i did't have.. and i am trying very hard to achieve..
I guess in situations like tt, i will have to stand up for my believes and principles and be on the right side.. i shouldn't do anytthing tt i will not like to do and i think is wrong..
thereforewhy suck up to ppl i don like for tt award.. i noe i have my recognition from my colleagues, and tts enough.. I would really like to thank those who believed in me and given me their support.. And like the quote for the title. I am going to be jus tt..
Alroght, anyway last nite was really really fun.. cause we went to st. james after tt and it was boy's nite.. OMG.. a lot of cuties, but mostly sa la too.. sa la meaning wrong of jus not rigt.. haha..
really dance and drank a lot.. when it comes to partying and having fun, guess i don relly hold back on my cash.. haha.. jus wanna have FUN!!!
dance a lot although i really hated the music.. the ppl who were at st. james are jus so fun.. totally rock!! oh ya and chatted a guy up over there.. lets jus say tt i was a bit high, and are jus doin things for the sake of FUN!! haha... got his number but haven really do anything bout it.. anyway he is pretty stuck up and is dating someone.. but he still gave his number to me..
and he looks quite good. in the dark..hahah... meaning when the ligthts come on, u got to minus some marks off.. but watever it is.. guess i am jus desperate for someone to share my ups and mainly DOWNS...
who cares.. ok.. anyway i am going to take up more dance classes.. its my passion and i must do it before i get any other.. no regrets in my life man... can't afford tt.. so tts all for today...

p.s. i realise the time and date of my post is always sa la.. so i better state it here too.. haha..

120307, MON, 1143hrs.

From Home

alright.. my com at home is suprisingly ina good mood.. and thus i can finally make a postin at home.. haha..
more random stuff coming up..
haha.. attended my so called 1st dance class at LA dance connection today.. was pretty fun but i am really bad at memorising ceographed steps man..
i really enjoy danceing.. jus a pity that i was exposed to it at a later age.. but i really wan to learn more bout it.. and u noe wat, it cost $$$$..
so how.. should i save up?? or should i pursue a passion i realise too late.. there are so many dance studios now, but lessons are still not cheap man.. hmm. Any Sponsors???
oh ya.. anyway my frens who applied for the same uni jas got their confirmation already.. but i haven got mine.. which means i have to go apply again.. SUXX!!!
its so unfair.. cause i applied earlier then some of them and there's not even a single letter sednd to me.. not even one to reject my application la!
anyway my mum's overseas at australia now and i am pathetically stuck at home myself wit loads of stuff to do everyday.. i am a serious workholic man.
jus finish a book called "it's not how good u r, its how good u wan to be!"
i noe it sounds cheesy but i really live by this quote man.. and thats why i bought the book.. but it wasn;t as good as i expect it to be.. ok watever..
i am getting headaches frequently these days.. am i too tired?? i got no idea.. it jus sux.. guess i should go zzzz now.. its really late liao.
I'm so looking forward to dating someone new to share my life with, but the more i think about it, the sadder i get. Cause its never the right time, the right place and right person..
and ya.. last but not least, i have upgraded myself from a bisexual to a trisexual. haha.. according to my colleague, this term totally suits me cause, i like gals, i like guys and i like myself!!!

first of march

well.. a random posting.. jus feel like shring wat i did recently.. went to st james for the 1st time last nite. it was great.. haha.. probably the second best place after phuture.. haha..
and i got check for my ID.. haha.. do i seriously look undewr 21.. not tt i am complaining.. i am jus totally delighted..
oh.. nad wat else can i share?? i really don noe..
jus really busy.. keep ondoin shows.. like a few every week.. then loads of rehearsals to attend.. SUX.. even though some of the rehearsals at ACS, which i am suppose to be excited about.. I AM NOT!!
haha.. ok ok..
watched dreamgirls last nite too.. totally ROX.,. haha.. LOVES IT!! everyone must go watch.. i love Beyonce.. like totally.. ok ok .. not in the mood to say anything else more actually.. haven't been a really good mood.. not totally sad.. jus a little depress.. and i a little angry sometimes.. jus need more reest i think. haha.. ok then.. anyway wishing everyone a belated hapy chinese new year.. hope its a good year ahead..