Kissing You Goodbye...

baby不要再哭泣
　　这一幕多么熟悉
　　紧握着你的手彼此都舍不得分离
　　每一次想开口但不如保持安静
　　给我一分钟专心
　　好好欣赏你的美
　　幸福搭配悲伤
　　痛是在我心交叉
　　挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
　　付出的爱收不回
　　还欠你的我不能给
　　别把我心也带走
　　去跟随
　　每一次和你分开
　　深深的被你打败
　　每一次放弃你的温柔
　　痛苦难以释怀
　　每一次kiss you goodbye
　　爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白

　　但欠你的我不能给
　　我才明白爱最真实的滋味
　　我终于明白

Well this song is by wang lee hom.. didn;t really like it actually.. until when i realise that the lyrics is really meaningful.. haiz.. a lot of times when i felt like i didn;t want something to end so that i didn;t had to leave some one.. well this song jus comes to my mind.. i still miss him.. whenevr i here tis song.. i jus can;t help but feel totally down. and memories flood my mind..
Not only tis song of course.. every thing and laughter that we shared, i can still deeply remember.. I jus can't get it out of my head..

Ook.. lets talk bout something else.. wat can i say.. the performance with the orchestra was pretty good.. i am glad i played my part fairly well cause i was so nervous la.. so many solos.. haha.. and get to meet tis really cute guy playing the sheng.. OMG.. so cute.. took a photo wit him.. he;s probably crooked too la.. the way he look at me.. didn't knoew i can still attract boys.. haha..

Eh... wat else.. nothing much la.. trying to attend more driving lessons cause practicval exam coming soon le.. wat da hell.. i better pass the 1st time.. giving myself high expectations lor.. strss stress......

Ok leaving soon le.. cause fifnsh work liao.. yeah.. will update again ba..

I don wan to be help hostage..

我和你啊存在一种危险关系
彼此挟持这另一部份的自己
本以为这完整了爱的定义
那就乖乖的守护着你

相爱变成猜忌怀疑的烂游戏
规则是要憋著呼吸越靠越近
但你的温柔是我唯一沉溺
你是爱我的就不怕有缝隙
在我的心上用力的开一枪
让一切归零在这声巨响
如果爱是说什么都不能放
我不挣扎反正我也没差
.....

This is a song by A mei.. its kind of hard to translate these lyrics but its very meaningful.. so simply it kinds of say these...

When 2 person are in love for too long, they kind of hold each other hostage when both of them are unwilling to give up.. Not only that, they usually start to be suspicious of each other. So when they broke up, its like the criminal, who is the person who initiated the broke up, shot the hostage.. And everything jus returns to zero, down to nothing after this loud bang.. If love is something that has to be endured till the end of time, then usually the hostage who is shot, will not struggle as when the gun shot is fired, nothing can be done already and nothing would be change.

Its kind of depressing but i really love this song.. and the lyrics.. of course there are different ways to interpret it but guess i am more to the pessimistic side.. haiz..

Oh ya.. now more and more ppl seems to be reading my blog.. OMG>> SHY SHY>> haha.. but if u really do read.. jus keep it to urself.. as I said I don need to noe tt and I don need ur comments too.. this blog is jus a place for me to say wat I really wanna say.. the reason why i don wan to noe who is reading my blog is beacause i don wan to restrict wat i am going to post here.. cause maybe when i noe this person is going to read this, then i will try to avoid talking about him.. but this is not wat i wan... so pls ppl, jus keep it to urself...

Oh ya.. work tis week is jus xian.. i am jus losing my faith in work.. and i am listening to kelly clarkson's album while typing this.. makes me even more depressed lar.. great songs.. i will post some more of her lyrics up here.. wow.. luv her voice..

CAPRICORNS SUX!!!!!!!!!!!

OK>> very long never update le. since my last emo posting. OMG.. love it..
anyway suppse to have audition in camp today.. but some idiot screw it up lar.. so ended up wit like 2 ppl coming onli..WAt da hell.. stupid!!!
oh then.. went for some practice last nite at a orchestra.. was a guest musician helping my friend out.. but guss wat.. i was scolded by the president for giving a fake chinese name for the booklet.. FUCK HIM!!! its not fake.. its jus not my original chinese name but its a tranlation from my english name lar... FUCK HIM for being so rude to me.. FUCKING EGO PRICK!!
1st, i'm a GUEST MUSICIAN>. so pls show me some respect.. 2nd, the name part is suppose to acknoledge musicians lor, so i can choose my OWN NAME RIGHT!!!!! u not happy then fuck it la.r..
and he said i show no respect to the orchestra.. he fucking show no respect to me lar!!!
wat da hell if not for my friends in the orchestra i would have fuck him already. and if he ever does tt again.. i give some color man.. can;t wait for tt to happen.. this further proved tt i hate capricorns/.. OMG>>>> FFFFUUUUUCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKK IIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!

Ok.. resume back to me.. been really tired and busy these days.. wit all kinds of shit.. and my driving practical is like in AUGUST and i am not even prepared lar.. ok ok.. i am really hungary.. so going for lunch le... to be continued...