Where is the end of the world??

Why is it wrong to LUv U?
Why do i have to suffer the pains?
The words that people said pierced through my heaRt like needles.
BUt my heart doesn't have any idea how to let u go.
Cause i jus wan to lose myself in luv for this once.

Bring me to the end of the world, where we don have to be bothered by ppl who don understand.
I refuse to sleep in the dark as i choose to indulge in you when night falls.
So bring me to the end of the world, where we can realise wat "happiness" means and tears can't be found at all.

I'm already tired and i jus need to rest in your arms.
who cares about wat people are saying.
To start anew again, i need the world to jus shut the fuck up and listen to the total silence in my heart.
I can't find the strength to struggle too, as all I wan and hope is to luv you truly and deeply for this once.


oK.. These lyrics are translated from a chinese song. haha.. but quite cool right.. and means quite a lot too.. heehee..

OK.. 2 days ago.. was the opening ceremony of Asian aerospace 2006. heehee.. and i am honoured to like take part in it.. although we didn;t play live, we still recorded the track lar.. so we were jus miming there.. and i must say tt the dances were great.. very impressed,., heehee.. good good.. and great to work wit the artists too.. new experience ma..
the yesterday sooo tired.. but still went to company in the morning to help out wit the auditions as i promised le.. feel quite bad if i don keep my words.. but took afternoon off then went to teach at school lor.. then at nite oso did the usual illegal stuuf lar.. damn tired.,.. when i reach home.. i almost died.. i was like out from home at 630 and reach hoome at bout 11 plus.. OMG.. travelled from bedok to yishun then to pasir ris then to tampines then to siglap then home.. haha.. i respect myslef..


OK.. but thing is.. all these made me really depress again last nite.. so then i will think of mr charming.. haiz.. so messaged him.. then didn't relly get to chat.. but i really miss him so so much.. and i jus need so company.. haiz.. i really wan to learn how to be independent.. but guess emotinally i am too unstable to be independent for now....
SOmetimes i jus think i wan to rely on something.. its like some ppl have faith in different religion, but guess mine is in someone out there.. or jus plain luv.. haha.. nonsense.. don noe wat i am talkin about again..

OK.. and i am really poor now.,. so can anyone suggest me some ways to earn moneyl.. oh man.. :(

Happy Valentine Day...

Alright.. its the time of the year again.. haha.. this year.. i'm single once again..
Not really sad jus a bit xian cause still got to work later at nite.. hmmm.. at least i'm doin something la.. rather then jus rot at home and feel sad.. ok ok..

Bored.. shows finally ended.. so now back to a more normal life in camp.. but starting to have a lot of shit work to do le.. like Sibelieus.. OMG.. hate it.. i really hate computers, so sibelius is so torturous to me.. but bo bian.. stupid.. then arranging some scores for CIE to play too.. of course its got to be FORRREST GUMP la... my favourite for now.. but jus remind me of Mr Charming morew.. cause we always listen to it on the car.. haiz.. will he still call me?? i really doubt so.. but nvm.. i will jus stay positive and try to be happy lar.. not dying yet.. oh ya.. wonder whose going out wit who today.. heehee... actually i do feel happy when i c couples together.. a little bit envy but definately not jealous..

Ok quite crappy.. anyway i don realy noe wat to type now.. most of the other guys are having a major meeting but i am not involve.. heehee.. still not in charge of anything yet.. heehee.. but guess i will be soon when the rest ORD>. SAd!! gonna miss them really a lot.. HOW HOW!!!??? how to survive.. stress!!!
Oh yeah then there is this website tt i must talk about la.. Its www.alabe.com.. some astrology stuff.. go to my birth chart and they will calculate for u ur star plaing after filling in the necessary stuff required.. ALthough i'm a scorpio, my rising sign is actually a taurus.. so ppl will usually view me as a taurus.. but best is tt my moon sign is a virgo.. heehee.. that means tt is the inner me where no one sees.. :> so i'm not tt happening afterall.. jus wanna lead a stable and happy life la.. like a typical virgo.. hmmm

wat else is there to share.. ehhh...nothing much for now le.. ok then.. next time thenn..

Glamour Quest 2006...

Don't you wish your girlfriend was hot like me
Don't you wish your girlfriend was a freak like me
Don't cha, don't cha, baby
Don't cha, alright, sing
Don't you wish your girlfriend was raw like me
Don't you wish your girlfriend was fun like me (big thrills)
Don't cha

Song by pussycat dolls.. called DON CHA... heehee.. very bitchyu son.. i like...


ALright, my running to be Singapore's next top model has ended last Friday..
It was the semi finals and where 30 ppl became 10.. it was a tough fight and i knew i stood little chance.. but i still gave my best cause i didn't wan to dissapoint my supporters.. i was really touched by them.. u know who u r peeps..

Ok b4 e glamouous nite. hmm.. 2 weeks of hell for me.. little understood the pain i had to go through.. it was CNY too and i jus can't enjoy the food.. damn it.. it really sux.. and i had to like salad most of the time.. not tt i mind.. but i can't eat the food i wan!!. and worse thing is i refuse to go lunch wit my colleagues and friends cause the sight of food makes me feel so so terrible.. jus like dying.. ok i did slim down.. and couple of kjs..
BUt not only tt.. i had to exercise all the time and it totally wre me off.. like totally.. they said exercising suppose to make u more energetic but my body totally wore off.. and i was like limping for a few days and i jus felt really lethargic.. haiz.. damn depressed la for the 2 weeks.. haiz..

ok back to tt nite.. it was at clu momo.. wooooooooo.. i wuite like it.. cause very long never go club le.. haha.. hmm club wear, i got a tee shirt tt i didn't try and it is not wat i chose.. xian.. but nvm.. still look good in it anyway.. haha.. the terror strikes during swim wear.. the swimsuit was terribly small la.. so many ppl in tt bloody small room.. almost fainted.. ok but overall i am quite satisfied wit my own performance jus tt of course my body is not as good as others... heehee..
when the results was announced i wasn;t too disappointed cause kinda of expected la.. but jus tt my prediction for those who will get in is generally wrong too.. OMG.. wat was the judges thinking??? anyway my friend who was standing behind the judges said i didn't do too badly.. heehee.. probably in bout the 15th position.. heehee..

Tis competition is like a wake up call to me.. am i willing to sacrifice and suffer for my dream to be a model.. or enjoy myself wit wat i like and wat i do all the time and jus be the person tt i am.. haiz.. really sad and depressed lor.. and tried talking to mr charming bout it but he didn't quite understand too.. worse still, we quarelled last nite over a topic.. alcohol.. damn it.. i really regretted it but its jus being me i guess.. no point trying to be different person when i am wit him right.. so was jus saying wat i wanted and being who i am.. now i am scared of losing.. but if it is going to be true, then we can;t stop wat is goin to happen lor.. so still feeling a bit down today... haiz.. wat is going to happen????

ANd worse still.. it has been soooo busy in company for the past few weeks and we have shows like everyday.. haiz.. the work is oso wearing me down lar... how how.. HELP.. i need a good break.. i wan to go oversaes.. i wan to enjoy myself..
oh ya how can i forget this.. i have a friend from china who is here for holiday.. and i don even have tim e to entertain him much.. haiz.. not i don wan k.. and my ex colleagues of course hate me cause i got no time for them at all!! HHEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I need a god damn fucking break la.. if tis goes on, then i'm bound to get into another depression state already.. its gonna be bad cause i haven had it for a while.. better not come back.. ok ok.. enough of complaining le.. i have so much in mind now.. will update again when i can get some stuff sorted out..