Glamour Quest 2006...

Don't you wish your girlfriend was hot like me
Don't you wish your girlfriend was a freak like me
Don't cha, don't cha, baby
Don't cha, alright, sing
Don't you wish your girlfriend was raw like me
Don't you wish your girlfriend was fun like me (big thrills)
Don't cha

Song by pussycat dolls.. called DON CHA... heehee.. very bitchyu son.. i like...


ALright, my running to be Singapore's next top model has ended last Friday..
It was the semi finals and where 30 ppl became 10.. it was a tough fight and i knew i stood little chance.. but i still gave my best cause i didn't wan to dissapoint my supporters.. i was really touched by them.. u know who u r peeps..

Ok b4 e glamouous nite. hmm.. 2 weeks of hell for me.. little understood the pain i had to go through.. it was CNY too and i jus can't enjoy the food.. damn it.. it really sux.. and i had to like salad most of the time.. not tt i mind.. but i can't eat the food i wan!!. and worse thing is i refuse to go lunch wit my colleagues and friends cause the sight of food makes me feel so so terrible.. jus like dying.. ok i did slim down.. and couple of kjs..
BUt not only tt.. i had to exercise all the time and it totally wre me off.. like totally.. they said exercising suppose to make u more energetic but my body totally wore off.. and i was like limping for a few days and i jus felt really lethargic.. haiz.. damn depressed la for the 2 weeks.. haiz..

ok back to tt nite.. it was at clu momo.. wooooooooo.. i wuite like it.. cause very long never go club le.. haha.. hmm club wear, i got a tee shirt tt i didn't try and it is not wat i chose.. xian.. but nvm.. still look good in it anyway.. haha.. the terror strikes during swim wear.. the swimsuit was terribly small la.. so many ppl in tt bloody small room.. almost fainted.. ok but overall i am quite satisfied wit my own performance jus tt of course my body is not as good as others... heehee..
when the results was announced i wasn;t too disappointed cause kinda of expected la.. but jus tt my prediction for those who will get in is generally wrong too.. OMG.. wat was the judges thinking??? anyway my friend who was standing behind the judges said i didn't do too badly.. heehee.. probably in bout the 15th position.. heehee..

Tis competition is like a wake up call to me.. am i willing to sacrifice and suffer for my dream to be a model.. or enjoy myself wit wat i like and wat i do all the time and jus be the person tt i am.. haiz.. really sad and depressed lor.. and tried talking to mr charming bout it but he didn't quite understand too.. worse still, we quarelled last nite over a topic.. alcohol.. damn it.. i really regretted it but its jus being me i guess.. no point trying to be different person when i am wit him right.. so was jus saying wat i wanted and being who i am.. now i am scared of losing.. but if it is going to be true, then we can;t stop wat is goin to happen lor.. so still feeling a bit down today... haiz.. wat is going to happen????

ANd worse still.. it has been soooo busy in company for the past few weeks and we have shows like everyday.. haiz.. the work is oso wearing me down lar... how how.. HELP.. i need a good break.. i wan to go oversaes.. i wan to enjoy myself..
oh ya how can i forget this.. i have a friend from china who is here for holiday.. and i don even have tim e to entertain him much.. haiz.. not i don wan k.. and my ex colleagues of course hate me cause i got no time for them at all!! HHEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I need a god damn fucking break la.. if tis goes on, then i'm bound to get into another depression state already.. its gonna be bad cause i haven had it for a while.. better not come back.. ok ok.. enough of complaining le.. i have so much in mind now.. will update again when i can get some stuff sorted out..