The Endless ROad In Life...

"The truth is tearing up my heart
I can't recognize this place
The endless road without a stop sign
Can't even find a stranger this time
Why am i still holding back my tears
In this loneliness there's nothing to fear
Every chord still seems a wonder
How we could be together
Every time i ask if this would be the last
Why am i still talking to myself
Hoping you will have the keys to my cell
Every song might calm the weather but it just draws me deeper
How do i get out of this I think i never will
A crystal forming in the eye Maybe this would be the last
The winding pathdown my face
Till i begin to taste the bitterness inside"

ALl right.. this is a song by JJ Lin.. hmmn.. called endless road... very meaningful lyrics i think.. so share lor..

Oh yah.. back to a bit on my luv life.. haha.. remember mr charming whom i met at a performance.. ok ok.. brief description of him..
42 yrs old.. but look like 24.. rich but not a spendrift.. nice guy.. scorpio too.. dentist.. blah blah blah..
anyway i am really attracted to him.. but u guys noe the age gap is a little big.. it doesn't really matter to me but it matters to him a lot.. haiz...
i still wan to further my studies.. i still wan to fulfill my dream as an air steward, but he disagree cause he thinks it is a low class job.. haiz..
he also said tt for his age, he wans to look for someone more stable lor and stuff.. i am really very sad,.. haiz..
but i as myself, how many ppl can actually give up their dreams and switch their goals jus for someone they luv..
its very selfish of him for wanting me to do so, but guess its onli when u luv someone then u will wan to keep him or her by ur side.. ok ok..
but then, i have decided to be a little selfish too.. i still wan to do my stuff and fiollow myu heart.,. but i must stress tt, tt doesn't mean tt i don luv him anymore too ok.. i still luv him, but guess if u really luv me too, u shoul;d also show me some support in wat i really wan..
haiz.. qutie sad when i realised tt we have so much differences after all.. but still i believe we enjoy each other's company..
so now we r jus very close friends,.. no status, no commitment,.. don really like it. not really wat i wan.. but i have no choice.. its better then not having him anymore.. ok ok..
looking at the lyricsk above, i really luv the line which says.. "Every time i ask if this would be the last".. i guess alot of ppl jus hope to be able to settle down wit someone.. so we don have to be in search anymore.. but guess tt wouldn't be happening to me in the near future..
quite xian when i think of tt.. haiz.. i am too ambitous.. i am too career minded.. but still, i need to be luv. who can understand how i feel and still care for me despite my selfish pursuits..
ok,.. i am getting really depressed over this.. i shall end here for now..

I still luv u dear.. and i am glad i did cause even though we may not be together forever.. i noe i had met u b4 in my life.. its a memory worth treasuring for the rest of my life.. i hope we will still care for each other till the end of time.. perhaps as a friend.. u always end ur messages wit this smiley face.. and thus i should end mine wit this today too.. :-)