Wats the color of ur eyes?

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong.
Your arms around me tight
Everything it felt so right
Unbreakable like nothing could go wrong
Now I can't breath no I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on.

Here I am
Once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel all right
For once in my life
Now all thats left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't Breath no I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on.

Here I am
Once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For Hating you I blame my self
Seeing you it kills me now
No I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...


OK ok.. this is another song by kelly clarkson.. called "behind these hazel eyes".. well i use to quarell with my ex on whther i have hazel eyes a not.. haha.. conclusion, i think i have brown eyes lar.. can be seen clearly only when i am under the sun. haha.. not bad eh.. think at least my eyes is not bad, although its small.. heehee...

Wat do u guys think of the lyrics.. i really luv it cause she jus sings with passion and her powerful vocal really moved me..

I was quite busy the past few days, thus explaining this long awaited posting.. hmmm.. had a few performances, lots of meeting up and rehearsals to attend.. was packed everyday..

For this week.. quite busy too, but still have sometime for myself lar.. so not too bad..

Oh yeah.. Had a performance last sunday and mr charming came to watch..
I was pretty touch.. haven had someone special come support me in a performance for very long already.. really feels good.. came wit 2 of his friends.. had dinner after that then he send me home.. i kind of really like him.. but i don noe how he feels.. guess he is still bothered by the age gap.. haiz.. he is often very busy too, so i can;t really see him often.. but we are finally going to watch our 1st show together.. yeah.. he had tickets for the premier of king kong.. and he asked me along.. oh yeah.. so happy.. hahahaha... hmm.. at least there is some improvemenet in our relationship..

hmm then back to my friend "a".. remember the guy who i use to like too.. we are kind of more like friends now.. didn;t wan to feel so attached to him.. he kind of pissed me off yesterday cause he is once again skirt chasing some other gals and telling me about it.. i wasn't really interested but i always listen to him cause i believe everyone needs a listening ear.. but the most turn off thng is this...

"a": Hey i knew a new gal..
Me: Oh really.. who?
"a": huh.. don tell u lar.. cannot tell u..

WTF!! then don even tell me u noe this gal in the 1st place lar.. am i being bad tempered.. i guess not right.. he is like wasting my time lor.. then he send my friend home the nite b4.. an attractive female friend of mine.. lets name her "d".. ok.. "d" is attached to one of my best bro.. "k".. haha,, and I told "a" clearly tt, i don care which gal he wants to have fun wit.. jus don touch my friends..
Guess wat, after sending her home, he took her number.. then started all this messaging.. telling me she is like flirting lor.. come one.. look whos flirting here lar.. can;t stand him sometime.s... i said she is jus being friendly lor.. But the worse thing was he ask her out... alright for a drink onli.. he said i was oversensitive and thinking too much.. he will not do anything to "d". but when i 1st asked him did he ask "d" out, he said no.. well how i noe he did.. cause "d" called and tell me.. Damn it.. he seriously thinks i wouldn't noe lor.. and i feel so so pissed cause he don seem to be listening to wat i said.. being really disrespectful to me.. and also to my friend "d"..
He can fairly well have his fun else where man..
Worse part, he said i was over sensitive and stuff.. but come on.. i know u well enough "a".. wat u said in the afteronoon about how u got her phone and how u r interested, how can i even trust u?!?!?! WAH LAO...
Yes i am over protective... but towards my friend i am cause i care for them..

ok ok.. getting veyr long liao.. conclusion is.. i am disappointed in "a" cause i trusted him but i think he crossed the line.. apologised and stuff but i will not forget this.. hmm.. how can u not take my words seriously..


Last but not least.. i can;t wait for tomolo to come so i can meet mr charming again.. :)