Because.. Of.. You...

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
Over the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you


Yet another song lyrics by one of the best diva kelly clarkson.. hmm.. song title is "because of you"..

hmmm.. ok.. met mr charming yesterday for a show. went to watch the premier of king kong.. fuckinh long show.. 3 hrs.. wah.. damn tired.. not bad.. but not my kind of show lar.. then after that we had dinner then he sent me home.. well i really don noe wats our status now..
Guess its more like a open relationship.. cause he still doesn;t wan to commit.. he still can't convince himself and get over the issue of our age gap.. well.. it does matter but its not really a big problem u noe.. tts wat i think lar..

OK.. quite sad.. cause i am really quite serious bout him.. and i feel that i am in a situation now whereby i can't withdraw myself out of this thing and i oso can;t see any progress.. i feel so stuck in this.. haiz.. i really don noe wat to do.. i jus hope tt things will be better after he think through things.. but now.. as long as i still have him by my side, i am quite happy le..

And yes.. have u guys ever felt tt u r so so so tired u need a break.. a rest. a get away.. but whenever u can rest and u r alone.. u start thinking too much and stuff. then u get really depressed.. and u really can;t rest cause ur mind jus don wan ot rest even though ur body is realy really tired.. haiz.. i really hate this feeling... i really don noe how to handle this.. when i told this to mr charming.. he jus said i was immature.. hmmm.. sadded..
Any idea wat i should do..


OK ok.. actually i don really like my friends reading my blog.. cause i don really like the comments they give me sometime.. often very bias and stuff...
ok.. if u have any comments on wat i posted. can send it to my mail k.. kill_sluts@yahoo.com.sg.. haha.. why kill sluts cause bitches and bimbos rulez.. ok.. pls be serious when u r sending ur comments or suggestions k.. and if u r my friend.. i rather u remain annoynomous.. :)

TTS ALL.. cause someone is looking me typing.. haha..