Who Am I?? I don NOE>>>>
like when i am in camp, i am like this person, the usual ic, serious when work and doing my job performaing all the time, hating my job, bitching wit my colleagues, feeling like i am wasting my youth away..
But when i am teaching, i really enjoy it.. more sense of satisfaction, but i am not the really nice guy.. more of a bad teacher... rude and vulgar, even though my students are mainly gals.. but who cares..
And when i am working at the cafe, OMG.. a total bitch.. serves really well when i am in a good mood.. hating difficult customers and cursing them all the time.. a strict supervisor when i wan, a very slag person when i detest the new rules set by the management.. cause they are plain selfish and dumb most of the times..
Woring different jobs and facing diffrent ppl has really train me to be stronger.. emotionally and mentally.. more flexible and adaptable..
but why am i writing this then??
i feel tt i may start to lose myself too.. the real me.. who i really am?? i will start to forget..
i don wan tt to happen.. i wan to luv and be luv.. its makes me feel real.. i can be who i am when i am wit someone i luv or i'm confortable wit.. i miss tt feeling.. being able to talk bout anything under the sun with tt person.. be it a guy or a gal..
i am hard to understand.. cause sometimes i don get myself too.. issit because i have a split personality??
Watever it is, i know i have an alter ego.. maybe more then one.. i will try to find out..