THE 5 HEARTS..

Oh yah.,.. was reading some geisha book the other day at times book store.. hmm then came by this part where they say u must have these 5 hearts to be a good geisha.. haha.. but i really think its cool.. and its something which i think everyone should have la.. eh here it goes...

1.) A Gentle and Obedient heart - To be able to Say Yes
2.) An Apologising heart - To be able to Say Sorry
3.) A Modest heart - To give credits to people for accomplishment
4.) A Volunteering heart - To be able to say I'll Do It
5.) An Appreciative heart - To be able to say Thank You

Oh yes.. tts about it.. haha.. k k .. to be continued.. got to do stuff ;le...

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OK... i noe these few entries tt i have are really bad.. but i can;t help it cause i need to find some place to vent my anger.. today is a fucking xian day for me.. there is like so little ppl in the company and i was scolded for not doing roll call.. isn;t it dumb to do roll call wit so little ppl and nothing to talk about.. ok if u wan to follow the protocol.. but i am not even in charge, i am jus helping my friend do the parade state lar.. stupid idiot..
watever.. then was helping my friend sign some stuff too, oso got nagged at cause format is wrong.. com one la.. its jus a memo.. how official u wan it to be.. letter issit.. there is a difference lor.. wonder how he becomes an officer one?!?!?!
Perhaps they are jus making things difficult for me... watever.. i am jus pissed..
ok i have driving tonite and i so don feel like goin again.. i jus feel damn xian and not in the mood lar... don even feel like continuing my sibelius and stuff.. but i must still do ten of tt shit to get detached lar.. wah lao eh.. wat else to bitch about??? eh yesterday and 2 meetings and a directors dilogue session.. was all alright but i think it sux to put all three of them in a single day lar.. its jus plain tiring and not productive i think.. i feel my life here is changing.. and its not kinda of good.. may be i am not use to it, or maybe its the people around me.. i jus feel like shit here sometimes.. especially when all my colleagues are not around.. so XIAN!!!!

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Alright.. Yester day sux... to the cor.e. i was damn bloody unlucky..
FIrst thing in the morning, i dropped my phone after changing in the changing room cause i had a nightmare b4 tt and it seems so real that i kinda of freak out after changing alone.. so when i was about to run off, my phone dropped on to the floor!! aahhhhhhh!!! the screen went blank and stuff.. Bitch!! i was cursing and was damn sad lar.. so took half day off to go repair my phone.. and u noe wat.. its going to take 3 fucking days.. ok nvm.. i can wait.. BUT BUT BUT>>>>>>>>> everything in my phone will be lost.. wah lao.. i thought it was the galleries only.. but even my contacts will be gone.. wah lao.. how how???? sure die one.. haiz.. DEPRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok nvm.. then worse thing happened last nite.. i went home after a date with *vinz*.. then right.. i can;t take out my contacts!! OMG>> i can't believe this is happenieng.. cannot take out contacts lor.. i tried for like half an hour and my eyes are like all red already.. so i got damn xian... i took a cab to the hospital already.. then at the hospital's toilet, i manage to take out the contacts already.. wat the fucking hell!!!!!!! fucking shit.. wat is this.. why is this all happening.. arrrr.. waste my time travelling to the hospital and stuff... i am damn tired lar.,. ok nvm.. one more bitching to go.
This morning when i went to camp .. my sir told me say i should put my name in the messages i msged him.. cause i messaged him to tell him i need to take half day off yesterday.. and he nag at me for not putting my name in the fucking message lar!!!!
SHouldn't he save my number in the phone.. i called him a few times b4 lor.. and messaged him b4 lor!! and he don even bother to save my number..
how responsible is that for na officer.. i am really upset over this cause this jus hows how important i am to him.. i mean i have contributed enough in this company and tis move has jus proven the importance of me to him.. it is really disappointing.. not only i am not recognised, i feel tt its really unfair for me when he made it seems like my fault saying that i should include my names in all the messages.. come on la.. isn;t it dumb!!! its not tt u don noe me.. can;t u jus save my bloody number!!!!!!

SAD SAD SAD>> DEPRESSED DEPRESSED DEPRESSED>>>

Life Recently..

Ok.. i'm 1st to arrive at work today.. don noe why.. but perhaps cause its the school holidays so lesser ppl on the bus and on the road u c.. so got to camp really early.. updating my blog now so its not illegal k.. haha..
Ok.. lets c wat i can share wit u guys..
Hmm.. firstly, i must tell u guys bout a luv story that didn;t ended like a fairy tale.. i have an ex colleague who is bout 3 years my senior.. nice guy.. scorpio too, so may be a little weird at times but i sure can get along wit him la.. then i heard tt he broke up wit his GF le.. so sad.. his GF is actually 8 yrs older then him k.. cool right.. i mean its not easuy lar.. but u know wat.. they have been together for 6 Yrs already!! haiz.. sad sad.. they r like staying together and stuff liao.. but c wat happened.. felt super sad for them.. his GF psp scorpio lor.. issit true 2 scorpios cannot be together?? haiz.. sadded...
Ok anyway yesterday i was watching the campus superstar on Channel U... heehee.. kinda of really like it.. addicted le.. but the gal who got eliminated, Khim, was such a waste.. sshe is like damn good la.. and she is only 13.. OMG.. i respect her.. she has great potential man.. and the guy who got eliminated... think his called Yu Yang from manjusri one la.. thought he was quite cute but his gemini so don really like him le.. haha.. but must say he has a nice tone too.. so a bit wasted to c them got eliminatd.. both of them are definately better then some other contestents lor.. Xian.. UNFAIR!!!
I mean how can u still be in the next round when u forgot ur lyrics during a SINGING COMPETITION???!!! huh.. its ridiculous la.. its like forgoting ur scores when playing music la.. it should be like disqualification.. haiz.. pls raise the standards ppl!!! and Listen some ppl can't even sing in tune!! i may not be the best singer but hell knows when a person goes out of tune right.. OMG OMG!!!! felt like dying at some point lor.. ok NVM.. will try to catch the repeat today cause i found who to support le.. heehee...
There's a guy from Hwa chong.. wah lao.. he is GOOD!!! haha.. and finally yesterday a saw some confidence in him which made me totally fall for him la.. he has finally learne how to work the camera wit his charming eyes.. OH YEAH>>> FAINTZ>>>>>>>>>>>> haha..
and for the gals who else but the katong chicken?? well her voice is damn good.. and she is one great example of good pitching.. haha.. even when she;s off, she knows it and tries to correct it lar.. some ppl jus continue to be off for the whole bloody song.. wat were they thinking man?!?!?! shucks!!!
Hmm.. then nothing much to say le.. heehee.. in company quite xian.. but i'm finally doin work again.. Yeah.. arraning another piece for CIE>. its Eyes on me from final fantasy.. not bad lar./. hope its better then the 1st.. ok then.. got to start work soon.. shall cya guys again..
So many ppl not in company.. xian.. really miss some of them.. :(

Living life alone..

OK.. its been sometime since i last update this thingy again.. hmm.. not really busy,.. jus lazy.. ok.. had my first driving lesson last NITE!!!! and yes it was damn tiring for me cause i almost slept during driving.. sorry to havr caused danger to some other ppl on the road..o ppppsss.... heehee.. ok.. ut my aim is to pass the 1st time, so i got to work extremely hard ppl.. and i will.. haha.. k k .... hmm then wat else ah.. eh coming up will be quite busy cause will be preparing for some opera performance which is said to be damn hectic according to my seniors.. XIANZ>>> jus did some recording for it today..
ok wat else... i know its really random.. sorry peeps...
oh ya// have one colleague, RC.. have been on MC for really long.. hope u r doin fine dude.. i i know u do read my blog at times..
hmm.. wat else.. eh.. oh ya i jus finished arranging a piece for CIE.. haiz.. but seems we r still do busy to practice new songs.. so quite xian.. i don noe when we will have a chance to play tt..
Then there were some performance last weekend at suntec.. was qutie fun la.. get to spend time wit the CIE guys too.. especially someone.. so don find it hard work.. haha.. jus rot most of the time anyway.. oh ya.. then managed to dine at Haagen dazs too.. heehee..so happy cause someone treated us.. YEAH!!!..
hmmm wat else.. ok some might wonder who tt someone is?? anyway i am not too sure whether i mentioned it b4 a not.. its kinda of someone tt i idolise la.. jus a very nice guy next dorr who is totally straight.. but i luv making fun of him and spending time wit him cause at least i think we r on the same wavelength most of the time.. heehee.. and of course he is SCORPIO la.. alright man.. ehh,... ya...
ok ok.. actually i was looking for some lyrics to put on here one.. but can;t find any now.. so once again i translated some chinese songs.. here is the jizz of it.. its jus so meaningful...


LIVING LIFE ALONE>>

The leaves outside are shaking wit the wind.
The roads outside are empty too without any pedestrians.
My reflection in the mirror don seem to look like me and i have been weak since the day you left.

The shadows that you cast in every corner seems to be reminding me that i had lost you.
And all that i have left now is loneliness.

I think i'll have to get use to living alone.
I will have to pretend that i had not luv u before.
The cold nites would be kept warm by the tears streaming down my cheeks.
I think i'll get use to leaving life without you by erasing the promises you made in my memory.
Why is the result of loving you this?

Who can stop Luv from leaving when it has decided to go, and change for the better.
Love is like a dream and i had overslept.