Remeber me this way D. U mean a lot to me.

I had lunch wit him yesterday.

well u guys must be screaming at me, thinking why i am so stupid to still wan to see a jerk like him.

well it was a burfae treat tt he promised, and thus we went to this japanese restaurant, and had a fabulous lunch, at quite a Fabulous price too. but he paid, so it was ok.

we went for movie after tt, and watched Elizabeth, not too bad, but i was expecting more. and then he drove me home.



reason being, my mum called yesterday and confirmed a flight for me to be home tis WED, which is tomolo.

yes crazy i noe, some even wonder howw i can get a ticket in such short notice.

anyway guess it was destined.

so i had to rush home after lunch and movie wit him to pack, and nite time was jus hell.

called him after dinner to chat, and i jus wanted to clarify his feelings, cause trust me, yesterday's afternoon get together was really pleasant, i mean we really enjoy each other's company.

then as we talked, both of us lost it, and we jus cried like kids.

he seemd a little regret of tt e-mail tt he sent, but then i have already decided on going home early, so i have to do watever is decided.

guess he jus didn't expect me to do such a drastic thing.

so after much crying, i continued packing wit a heartache. and i sweart it sux.



its like my head made a veyr logical and correct decision of returning home early.

cause in tis case i don have to face him, and think of thim more when i am back, which may save more heartaches in the long run, and i should be home to visit dad. i have been too unfiliel, and i do believe a lot on karma. so tis is really bad karma, if i don show my dad more care and concern.



ok watever it is, the day still carries on wit a heart aching badly.

tis morning was more packing and stuff. and tis afternoon, i did manage to update my resume for job hunting in singapore for the next 3 motnhs.

and now here i am blogginng, cause i jus need a break, jus a little more stuff to pack u see.



tonite's plan is moi going to dinner wit him, cause i am buying him dinner as he has promised me to sent me to the airport.

and after dinner, i am staying over at his place.

ok, i heard another scream coming, cause when i told my housemates this, they jus smack and slapped and screamed at me for being stupid.

but then, the decision made by my head has already hurt my heart so much, i think spending my last nite here wit him, is jus to ease my heartache, and yes, my head is also screaming to me tt its not the right thing to do.

Watever, i have decided, so tt is jus going to happen, and tomolo evening, we will be heading to the airport.



so i guess tis post is going to be the last from aussie for 2007.

will update again when i am back in Singapore.

Pls wish me luck in finding happiness, or at least tell me wat to do to stay happy.

cause i seriously don noe now.

i am lost, i am confused when it comes to relationships.

its kinda of like my achilles heel.

I am now trying very hard to look forward to be home, and oso hope tt he and i can work things out.

meaning after i leave, i hope all the drama cease, and maybe, we can still be frens.

he created such a deep impact in me, i seriously wouldn;t be able to forget him at all.



i listened to a song, and i jus wan to dedicate tis post and song to him.

thanx for being my 1st aussie fren, and thanx for all the happy moments tt we had together.



Every now and then

We find a special friendwho never lets us down...

Who understands it all

reaches out each time we fall

you're the best friend i have found...

I know you can't stay

a part of you will never ever go away

your heart will stay.....

I'll make a wish for you,

and hope it will come true,

if life will just be kind,

to such a gentle mind,

if you lose your way,

think back on yesturday

remember me this way,

remember me this way.

I don't need eyes to see

the love you bring to me,

no matter where I go

and I know that you'll be there

forever-more a part of me and everywhere

I'll always care....

and I'll be right behind your shoulder,

watching you

I'll be standing by your side,

all you do

and I won't ever leave

as long as you believe,

you just believe....

I'll make a wish for you

and hope it will come true

if life will just be kind

to such a gentle mind

and if you lose your way

think back on yesturday

remember me this way

remember me this way.o.....this way.



I was reading the lyrics and listenng to tis song and the lousy me jus broke down again.

i can't stop crying.

Pls remember me this way.

I am gonna miss u, and i really really do care for u.

i jus hope u know.

good bye D.

Ur loving SunShine Forever.







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