Its not the place tt is screwed, its me who is screwed.
Believe it or not, over the course of more than 2 yrs, i onli gotten my 100th post. haha..
i am not a fan of blogging like i said.
my blog is boring and upsetting.
but i don deny the fact tt it does help me express my inner feelings and make my dinner better.. sometimes.
well.. tis is the 2nd post of today.
i slept like for 4 hrs in the afternoon. trust me, i am not tt lazy usually. as in i don sleep tt much.
but tt was like a form of escapism.
Still a little upset over my paper today.
ppl have told me i wrote too much. and i still thought i didn't cover enough.
i am in a state of confuse. i am worried for my results.
i jus can't move on... yet..
i wanted someone to talk to.
i called the 2 guys tt i liked.
one has his phone off, and he is apparently in melbourne now. totally unrealiable..
the other in sydney, comfirmed tt we have both iven up tis long distance dating thingy.
he felt embareesed in telling me , so i had to tell him 1st.
tell me my heart is broken and the pressure is killing me.
i jus wan a break. not a break up.
I am always glad tt i have pretty a lot of close peeps around me to share my joy and sadness.
And i am also ashame to say tt i have never treated them well enough at times.
but i am really sincere and i do care a lot for them.
i wonder if this comes off to them cause i realise i always give very bad and wrong impressions.
love has become a really far fetched thing for me now.
and how i hope i can date a gal. hopping tt a gal will not be like a guy.
cause i hope they don jus like me physically.
gay love is heavily based on physical attraction and sex, which is really turn off after sometime.
dinner was so bloody feeling wit pizzas and chicken, i feel like puking now.
waiting for more movies on TV to show, so i can slack and get fat.
next show in 10 mins is charlie's angel.
OK... i miss Singapore today. the food and the company i have back there.
Everything here seems screwed.
the studies and the dating.
i am screwed.
it happen back then in Singapore, now in Aussie.
its not tt place. its jus me.
someone tell me wat to do pls?
021107, SAT, 2131hrs
i am not a fan of blogging like i said.
my blog is boring and upsetting.
but i don deny the fact tt it does help me express my inner feelings and make my dinner better.. sometimes.
well.. tis is the 2nd post of today.
i slept like for 4 hrs in the afternoon. trust me, i am not tt lazy usually. as in i don sleep tt much.
but tt was like a form of escapism.
Still a little upset over my paper today.
ppl have told me i wrote too much. and i still thought i didn't cover enough.
i am in a state of confuse. i am worried for my results.
i jus can't move on... yet..
i wanted someone to talk to.
i called the 2 guys tt i liked.
one has his phone off, and he is apparently in melbourne now. totally unrealiable..
the other in sydney, comfirmed tt we have both iven up tis long distance dating thingy.
he felt embareesed in telling me , so i had to tell him 1st.
tell me my heart is broken and the pressure is killing me.
i jus wan a break. not a break up.
I am always glad tt i have pretty a lot of close peeps around me to share my joy and sadness.
And i am also ashame to say tt i have never treated them well enough at times.
but i am really sincere and i do care a lot for them.
i wonder if this comes off to them cause i realise i always give very bad and wrong impressions.
love has become a really far fetched thing for me now.
and how i hope i can date a gal. hopping tt a gal will not be like a guy.
cause i hope they don jus like me physically.
gay love is heavily based on physical attraction and sex, which is really turn off after sometime.
dinner was so bloody feeling wit pizzas and chicken, i feel like puking now.
waiting for more movies on TV to show, so i can slack and get fat.
next show in 10 mins is charlie's angel.
OK... i miss Singapore today. the food and the company i have back there.
Everything here seems screwed.
the studies and the dating.
i am screwed.
it happen back then in Singapore, now in Aussie.
its not tt place. its jus me.
someone tell me wat to do pls?
021107, SAT, 2131hrs
posted by SunShine at 4:12 AM
1 Comments:
***sunshine***
its me again!hehehe.i've posted a comment on a previous post,but no reply from u!liew ehz!
anw,i think u r stressed coz u hv set such HIGH standard for urself.one must always know their limits.knowing best hw to attack n conquer the kingdom tat u hv planned out for.
rem,things always dun go the way it's being planned at times.u must tell urself at times to accept failure or even minor hurdles.
i guess,u r just also upset tat the way u hope life will b in aussie,seems to be not turning out the way u hv portray it to be.ur main goal is to leave sin and start afresh in aussie and stuff.bt u realise tat it's just all the same afterall,just a doff location.i guess coz ur value in life have not changed,thus nuthing will change even u go to USA,UK or even furturemore.
bottomline,u r seeking for wat u wan in Sin tat u cant get,in aussie.it will not help.seriously.
focus on ur mum,her support finanically n emotionally.survive it thou nw and when back to sin.re-think about it and start "new" again next yr when u rtn to aussie!
Good Luck for exams!
Love,
Ling
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