All I want is jus One.

I feel defeated today.

I have been having loads of fun for the past 2 days but not today.

U noe how much it hurts when u are so bloody happy one day, and then terribly upset the next.

Its like an emotional roller coaster ride tt fucks up ur life.



I got back my results for my presentation today.

18.9 out of 30! wat the FUCK!!

I am so terribly pissed, upset and disappointed!!

i have never done a lousy presentation in my life!~

and lets jus say i am way below the class average of 22 when i noe my class FUCKING SUCK!!

i am so gonna talk to my lecturers tomolo. I jus hope their reasoning is convincing.



Anyway my dad contracted cancer. throat cancer.

nothing surprising for me.

i wasn;t tt sad a few days back when i noe the news, but today it hit my like a rock hit my head,

it kinda of hurt

i am really upset tt my mum , my bro and sis didn;t even wan to tell me.

i jus don noe wat are they thinking.

i haven called him cause apparently he has already lost his voice.

so i don c a point

and i don noe wat to say exactly, cause i don even noe the whole situation.

lets jus conclude tt today is a bad bad day, and u jus wan it to end immediately.



2 days ago, went clubbin and i was happy dancing the nite away.

last nite, went KTV and after tt mahjong.

Onli came home tis morning at 5 am!

think life is tt great, i don think so.

its the calm b4 all the exam stress!

and like wat u have read above, today isn;t tt great after all.



I am dating 4 guys now.

believe it or not.

its not a good thing.

i thought i shoudln;t focus on jus one cause i am always hurt by the one person.

and tts why i chose to date 4 ppl.

jus date.



Guy number one is in another state now. I like him the most cause he makes me happyh when i am wit him. we only spent 2 days together. but the attraction was pretty intense when we were together. its long distance. and probablu not going to work. But i don noe why i am still holding on. cause maybe all i wan is jus tt happinees he brings me when i am wit him. he is a tauras anyway.



Guy number two is someone i have blogged about. the guy who made me really upset, the 1st aussie guy i dated. The scorpio who kinda of play mindgames wit me all the time. I jus don noe why i still wan to date him. its jus tt i am attracted to him. Even after all tt he had done to me. I am stupid, but i jus don wan to think bout it so much. so ya. tts number 2.



Number 3 is a HK guy who has been staying in aussie for a long time. jus went out twice.

not too bad a company, can get a little boring. a libra. and my fren's kinda of like him cause he is easy going. but for me, its more of like a fren to me. not much of a potential partner.

and he has a wide range of DVDs for me to borrow, so i get plenty of entertainment while i am in aussie.



Last and 4 th guy, well not relaly dating. jus went out a couple of times too. the ireland guy who is bisexual. i feel kinda of bad sometimes cause he actually has a partner already. a woman whom he has been with for 10 years. yeah i noe its a long time and i noe i am a slut.

despite the pretty big age gap, we do have quite a lot to talk about. and he is pretty interesting. a tauras too. hmmm..



sometimes i don noe wat i am thinking. but lets jus say despite the attention tt i am getting, i still feel lonely and cold when nite falls.

afterr all, i jus wan ONE tt can stay wit me for the rest of my life.



Haiz, life sux. and talk bout a sucky day, i actually tore my favourite NIke Shorts while i was in dinner jus now.

still wearable but it jus got a little more sexy.



I wan to go sleep early tonite after TV and stuff..

Praying tt tomolo will be a better day.



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