NEVER AGAIN!!

alright... i have had enough!!
last nite, he told me tt his BF wans to break up wit him. leaving me all confused again..
then we went out today together..
movie was grreat!! recommendation from me to go watch "La vie En Rose".
dinner was even better at tis place called "singapura @ milton"
then he drove me home.. everything was so nice and my heart jus gave way..
i asked him to give me another chance to date him and luv him again..
i ask him to leave his fucked up BF who don really luv him at all!! seriously!! halo.. he so haven realise it!
we held hands before i alighted the car.. he even kissed me on my fucking cheek!!
HALO!!! THE SMARTEST PERSON WILL BE MISLEAD CAN!!!
i mean how can u not feel special if u r me!!
when he reached home, he called me and EVERYTHING CHANGED!! FUCK YOU!!
he said he don noe wat he wans! he said he don wan to hurt me!! halo u r practically holding to my heart and squeezing it so hard i can't breath anymore! talk bout fucking HURT!!
and when i am pouring my fucking feelings out to him and telling him how much i wan to luv him and he should jus let go of that fucked up relationship wit his "BF" , he say he is confuse and he deosn't noe wat to do!! FUCK YOU!!
and the next best thing he said was to STOP PUSHING HIM. I AM PUSHING HIM TOO FAR!! I AM ASKING FOR TOO MUCH!! halo.. i am trying to wake u up..
here i am trying to give u some luv and care, but yet u choose to live ur life wit tt fucking guy who don even care and luv u as much as i fucking do!! seriously.. I AM SO FUCKING PISSED!!
I found a song to further explain how i feel now.. and its sung by my beloved kelly clarkson.. U GO GAL!! i luv her.. check out the lyrics of tis songs man..

I hope the ring you gave to her turns her finger green

I hope when your in bed with her, you think of me

I would never wish bad things, but I don't wish you well

Could you tell, by the flames that burned your words

I never read your letter'Cos I knew what you'd say

Give me that Sunday school answer

Try and make it all OK

Does it hurt to know I'll never be there

Bet it sucks, to see my face everywhere

It was you, who chose to end it like you did

I was the last to know

You knew exactly what you were doing

And don't say, you simply lost your way

She may believe you but I never will

Never again

If she really knows the truth, she deserves you

A trophy wife, oh how cute

Ignorance is bliss

But when your day comes, and he's through with you

And he'll be through with you

You'll die together but alone

You wrote me in a letter

You couldn't say it right to my face

Give me that Sunday school answer

Repent yourself away

Does it hurt to know I'll never be there

Bet it sucks, to see my face everywhere

It was you, who chose to end it like you did

I was the last to know

You knew exactly what you were doing

And don't say, you simply lost your way

They may believe you but I never will

Never again\

Never again will I hear you

Never again will I miss you

Never again will I fall to you

Never

Never again will I kiss you

Never again will I want to

Never again will I love you

Never

Does it hurt to know I'll never be there

Bet it sucks, to see my face everywhere

It was you, who chose to end it like you did

I was the last to know

You knew exactly what you were doing
And don't say, you simply lost your way

They may believe you but I never will

I never will

I never will

Never again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yes.. the song is called 'never again'.

current love.. seriously...
he is pushing me to far.. i swear he is testing my limits..
I DON DESERVE TIS!!! FUCK PPL WHO TRIES TO SCREW ME UP!!!




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