I am Happy Now. But how long does "now" last?
I am A HAPPY PERSON.
I Feel fortunate. Haven felt the same way for soooo long..
ok reason being, i am dating someone whom i kinda of enjoy.. yup..
never thought i would like it so much.. but yes i do..
Yesterday's date was pretty good.. seriously one of the better ones..
tis is how it goes..
Woke up at 11am when he called me.. plan was to meet me after lunch.. but guess he couldn't wait.. and i was happy that he wanted to come earlier to.. so i went to wash up while he find his way here..
It took him one whole hour to come all the way to tis uluated town to pick me up.. but tis is wat he did.. and as i step out of my house, he car jus stopped by and wat a perfect timing...
We didn't even have to call one another..
Drove to paddington for lunch.. 1st time there.. took us another 1 hr.. by the time we were there.. i was famished.
decided on a cafe and had lunch there.. i had salmon.. and i swear it was good. and he had celery soup. then we both had juice.. sat there and jus enjoy the lazy afternoon after lunch..
the lunch was pretty ex. bout 42 bucks in total.. he wanted to pay but i insisted on me paying. he was really a gentlemen..
after tt.. we went to hamilton to catch a show.. "black snake moan".. we had sometime b4 the sow so we jus walked alng the river and stuff.. i was really happy although i kept on yawning, cause guess i jus wanted to sleep oso. but i do feel happy..
the show was not bad.. but then again.. after tt.. i was hungry again. then we went back to his place..
no we were not naughty.. he cooked dinner for me.. seafood linguine... yes it was good.. yes i swear i totally felt touch although he said it was jus a dinner.. guess its jus different la.. i am truely touched.. and dinner was good.. i jus have to say it again,.
he was really tired after tt. and we jus sat there and talk cock.. then he said he wanted to send me home.
another pleasent surprise. and a total plus point for tt.. OMG.. how can i not be touched by tt..
it was a long drive and i felt bad. but still terribly touched and loved. i am not hard to impress. as long as it is sincere..
The day started out a little slow and boring..
but by the time we were going to seperate for the nite.. i swaer, we jus hoped the nite didn't have to end.. well gave him a little pecked on the cheek and we hugged when we were at his place.. it was all good. not sexual. but i swear it would be if i didn't control.. well done me..
oh ya. and i did something crazy tis morning..i woke up at 5 am in the morning to send him a msg then get back to zzzz.. i jus wan to show him tt i really care for him.. and i am gald he reciprocates and doesn't take my effort for granted..
BUT i am scared.. i am scared i am not the one that he will choose at the end of the day..
i am a 3rd party. i am a slut.. maybe i jus don deerve to be luv..
Thinking of it makes me depress.. i don wan to think bout it..
i jus wan to immerse myself in the feeling of love for now..
even if its for the short term..
even if its only for now..
1947hrs, 270807, MON
I Feel fortunate. Haven felt the same way for soooo long..
ok reason being, i am dating someone whom i kinda of enjoy.. yup..
never thought i would like it so much.. but yes i do..
Yesterday's date was pretty good.. seriously one of the better ones..
tis is how it goes..
Woke up at 11am when he called me.. plan was to meet me after lunch.. but guess he couldn't wait.. and i was happy that he wanted to come earlier to.. so i went to wash up while he find his way here..
It took him one whole hour to come all the way to tis uluated town to pick me up.. but tis is wat he did.. and as i step out of my house, he car jus stopped by and wat a perfect timing...
We didn't even have to call one another..
Drove to paddington for lunch.. 1st time there.. took us another 1 hr.. by the time we were there.. i was famished.
decided on a cafe and had lunch there.. i had salmon.. and i swear it was good. and he had celery soup. then we both had juice.. sat there and jus enjoy the lazy afternoon after lunch..
the lunch was pretty ex. bout 42 bucks in total.. he wanted to pay but i insisted on me paying. he was really a gentlemen..
after tt.. we went to hamilton to catch a show.. "black snake moan".. we had sometime b4 the sow so we jus walked alng the river and stuff.. i was really happy although i kept on yawning, cause guess i jus wanted to sleep oso. but i do feel happy..
the show was not bad.. but then again.. after tt.. i was hungry again. then we went back to his place..
no we were not naughty.. he cooked dinner for me.. seafood linguine... yes it was good.. yes i swear i totally felt touch although he said it was jus a dinner.. guess its jus different la.. i am truely touched.. and dinner was good.. i jus have to say it again,.
he was really tired after tt. and we jus sat there and talk cock.. then he said he wanted to send me home.
another pleasent surprise. and a total plus point for tt.. OMG.. how can i not be touched by tt..
it was a long drive and i felt bad. but still terribly touched and loved. i am not hard to impress. as long as it is sincere..
The day started out a little slow and boring..
but by the time we were going to seperate for the nite.. i swaer, we jus hoped the nite didn't have to end.. well gave him a little pecked on the cheek and we hugged when we were at his place.. it was all good. not sexual. but i swear it would be if i didn't control.. well done me..
oh ya. and i did something crazy tis morning..i woke up at 5 am in the morning to send him a msg then get back to zzzz.. i jus wan to show him tt i really care for him.. and i am gald he reciprocates and doesn't take my effort for granted..
BUT i am scared.. i am scared i am not the one that he will choose at the end of the day..
i am a 3rd party. i am a slut.. maybe i jus don deerve to be luv..
Thinking of it makes me depress.. i don wan to think bout it..
i jus wan to immerse myself in the feeling of love for now..
even if its for the short term..
even if its only for now..
1947hrs, 270807, MON
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