Too many fucked up ppl in my fucking life to fuck up my already fucked up life.
Today is fuck up.
Is one of those days when u jus wanna scream out loud and cry.
Went for dance but there was no fucking lesson.
Called 2 ppl but they didn;t pick up.
one called back eventually and apparently he was also having a bad day, even though it was his burfdae. talked a while, and it seems tt he jus wans to end the phone call ASAP.
jus good nite and he ended the fucking call.. how fucking rude. i am pissed.
i am pissed wit everything and anything.
I don like to date so many ppl at all..
all i need is one.
but i really have no fucking idea who tt one is, and i have no fucking idea if the one exist.
it sux cause everyone thinks i am this tough and strong bitch who fucks around.
but seriously. its really not who i am and who i wan to be.
all i wan is tt special someone who can make me happy and satisfy me.
maybe i am asking for too much.
maybe i am too desperate.
maybe its jus not time.
i have no fucking idea.
its so true tt when u play hard to get, ppl treasure u more.
and they will wan u more.,
when u truely care and be there for the person, they jus take u for granted, or worse, they jus don feel like having u anymore. how sad.
exams in 4 days time and i am sooo not prepared. i hate it.
i hope i can be in the warrior mode, preparing for war and stuff.. but i jus can't .
tooo many distractions.
There is jus too many fucked up ppl in my fucking life to fuck up my already fucked up life.
Don't u jus luv wat i jus type.. haha. it was random but it was jus too cool.. thus my heading for tis post.
I wonder wat i am lacking..something is jus missing.
I need some help.. maybe counselliong..
haiz.. WTF...
i need to realise my emotions.
HHEEELLLPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(tis is wat happens when i don get to dance).
301007, TUE, 2132hrs
Is one of those days when u jus wanna scream out loud and cry.
Went for dance but there was no fucking lesson.
Called 2 ppl but they didn;t pick up.
one called back eventually and apparently he was also having a bad day, even though it was his burfdae. talked a while, and it seems tt he jus wans to end the phone call ASAP.
jus good nite and he ended the fucking call.. how fucking rude. i am pissed.
i am pissed wit everything and anything.
I don like to date so many ppl at all..
all i need is one.
but i really have no fucking idea who tt one is, and i have no fucking idea if the one exist.
it sux cause everyone thinks i am this tough and strong bitch who fucks around.
but seriously. its really not who i am and who i wan to be.
all i wan is tt special someone who can make me happy and satisfy me.
maybe i am asking for too much.
maybe i am too desperate.
maybe its jus not time.
i have no fucking idea.
its so true tt when u play hard to get, ppl treasure u more.
and they will wan u more.,
when u truely care and be there for the person, they jus take u for granted, or worse, they jus don feel like having u anymore. how sad.
exams in 4 days time and i am sooo not prepared. i hate it.
i hope i can be in the warrior mode, preparing for war and stuff.. but i jus can't .
tooo many distractions.
There is jus too many fucked up ppl in my fucking life to fuck up my already fucked up life.
Don't u jus luv wat i jus type.. haha. it was random but it was jus too cool.. thus my heading for tis post.
I wonder wat i am lacking..something is jus missing.
I need some help.. maybe counselliong..
haiz.. WTF...
i need to realise my emotions.
HHEEELLLPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(tis is wat happens when i don get to dance).
301007, TUE, 2132hrs
posted by SunShine at 4:20 AM
1 Comments:
heyloz Sunshine!
wow wow wow!Cool dwn man!Indeed, can see tat u had a fucked up life and day and date and blah blah.
hey i guess,u just need some time off,prob walking by the beach on a nice day,all by urself and reflect.
Shout loudly to the big blue sea and scream for all u can. Thereafter,calm urself dwn and sit by the rocks and let the breeze blow by u and start thinking of wat u really want and wat's really suitable for u.
no point pushing urself to the extent whereby u get urself soooo upset and over-exhuasted when no one else cares for ur feelings or even bother.
exams just ard the corner,and all u really need right nw is to focus,on ur studies and nt which guy wants u,etc.i noe its impt to u to hv love n b loved,bt i guess all these shld be dealt with after exam woes rite?
tell urself,clearly,why r u in aussie for?u said it will really gv u a carefree life and u really will b happy to just go there n pursue ur education dreams n so forth.thus,use this to further motivate urself to move on,at least during this exam period.
if u believe: wats meant to b urs,will b urs.but things tat's nt meant to be urs,no matter hw hard u try or forced urself,u will neva get it.
wishing that lady luck is by ur side!
*smilez*
Love,
Ling
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