updating my life on vesak day.

Haven blogged for sometime..
lets start wit the hapy stuff 1st..
jus came back from sentosa today and a great great dinner at 85..
The food was great cause i was freaking hungary..
we had so much to eat..
Cai tao guay, ba co mee, otah, BBQ chix, stingray, sotongs, hao jian, wu xiang and of course sugarcane juice!
We had a great time hanging out wit each other and jus chatting.. literally non stop talking for hours. from like 8 pm to almost 11pm.. haha... i really miss these times.. trust me, its probably one of the most enjoyable times in my life..
Sentosa is also a form of escape for me.. i jus get really happy being there..
Maybe its the sun, sand and sea.
Maybe its the countless amount of hotbods u c there.
Maybe its because i get to play my favourite volleyball.
Maybe its jus the company of great frens.
Sentosa is really really a great escape for me and the problems i have in life.

Have to go teach again tomolo.. haven prepare the stuff which i am suppose to.. BAD TEACHER!
I use to be really committedd.. but guess i am a little tired now.
Teaching is not simple as one think.. yes its pretty good money. and i can teach anything i like. BUT
Most importantly think we should take responsibility of wat we do and do the best we can.
I teach more the music.. to me teaching is being able to cultivate one's discipline, culture and love for wat he or she likes and believes in.
Trust me.. its NOT EASY at all..
Sometimes, i feel tt i have done a great job.. but now when i realised i have so much not done for my sutdents, i get so tired and disappointed in myslef..
I need a break too cause i am human..

Tis sunday is goin got be my last day at gelare..
I am going to miss tis place..
SERIOUSLY!!.. 3 fucking yrs of my life in tis cafe have shapped me sooo much.. good and bad.. i must say..
think i should slowly let go of wat i had in SG..
I can;t wait to leave for AUS.
maybe i jus wan to escape..
,maybei jus wan to start anew..
maybe its jus a believe i have tt i will thrive better elsewhere when ppl may be able to appreciate wat i say and do better,,,
BUt all tis is a wish.. its a dream..
i jus hop[e things tuen out well for me..

Kinda of stopped my dance lessons le..
miss them terribly again.,, my onli way to keep fit.,,
i am afreaid i will put on weight again..
i need to work on my body..
i still dream of modelling...
in the past. its like a dream.. but for me now,m i noe tt if i work hard enough...
i really can be a model... i jus need to work it and grab the opportunity when it comes..

i wan to end here today..
really tired from todays' fruitful events
haha
I don wan to write down the bad stuff in this entry..

I pray and i hope..
I wan a better life and i am going to fight for it...
Cause i am a fighter.


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