Contradiction!

I have a problem.. i realise i onli blog bout the problems i have and the really fucked up things in my life.. which is a good way to vent the anger in me.. but i guess its leaves onli the bad memories on tis blog...

Hmmm.. and yes.. yet another relationship problem. i really wonder why i get myself into all these shit sometimes..
I can usually handle the other stuff in my life pretty well. as in frens and work are doin fine most of the time.. but never my relationships.. so it sux big time..
I noe wat i wan.. but ppl always makes me feel tt wat i wan or do is wrong..
haiz.. so i start to think.. am i really wrong?
ppl say i am more matured then my age when the noe me.. but as times go by.. they sometimes scold me sayin gtt i am childish.. not look who's contradicting themselves and being the childish one..
Ppl wan me to be truthful in the relationship.. saying how i really feel at ALL times.. but wheni really do.. they jus can;t take it.. or they jus simply say they don understand wat i am thinking,
SO WHY THE HELL DO U EVEN ASK ME TO TELL U HOW I FEEL IN THE 1ST PLACE!?!?!

Anyway i am goin gto stop learning my dance after tis month.. i am really gonna miss it.. it has been a great motivation in my life for these pass months..
Aftetr tis month.. guess my main motivation would be to go to AUS.. YEAH!
Finally got my visa le.. so left a few thingsa to settle..
I hope AUS can give me a new lease of life.. i wan to start my new phse of life ASAP.
I feel so stuck now.. army sux!

Ok tts it for now. going to continue watching my AMtm CYCLE 8!