FIGHTER.

this is a continue of the previous post.. so read the previous one b4 reading tis k..

I learned alot form the story i jus told.. it sounds simple.. but i went through alot the past few days..

i realised i am a vulnerable person.. i need love and help like any other person in tis world..
its hard being tough and i am so tired of being tough like a bitch.
Yes i never get bullied, yes i always get wat i want. but all tt comes wit a price.. the price of being labeled by ppl..
ppl think i am who they see.. but i am not like the person i portray.
I relised i have frens who have stayed by my side all tis while and roots for me.. i always thoughti am a pillar of support for them.. but the matter of fact is.. i am no one without them..
I realised its ok to love and be hurt.. but most importantly.. i choose to make ppl happy.. i wan to c ppl around me smile.. and i wan to be happy because the ppl around me are happy..
There is no point being happy urslef and hurting the ppl around you.. it sux.. its not easy... but i am going to make ppl smile...
I realised i have a song to share wit everyone who reads tis.. and the lyrics are as follow..

When I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were trueI guess I,
I couldn't trust'Cause your bluff time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were, there by my sideAlways, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames'
Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm

After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong'
Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wouldn't know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you

Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter.

Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you're going aroundPlaying, the victim now
But don't, even beginFeeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave, uh huh

After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore
Uh, no more, oh no, it's over'
Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now, and never back down
So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter!


YUp.. tis is it... Fighter from Chritina Aguilera..
haha.. starting to luv tis song cause it really motivates me and kicks me in the ass to tell to keep going.. i noe i can do it.. i noe i am goin got achieve so much more in life..
and i noe i am still going to luv like i had never loved b4...
I think Sunshine is going to come back soon.. i jus need more time....
I still miss him.. I still like him.. he is Mr. NJC... You always be on my mind. Thanx for making me stronger...


0101hrs, 170407, TUE

Goodnitez.. i stil wan to dream of you tonite.. cause it doesn;t hurt so much now to think of you. i choose to remember the good times we had.. and the passion we shared..