PPL, GROW UP!!!

hey hey.. finally i get some private time to update my blog again.. ok.. don noe wat to say actually.. but need to find some time to do some reflection.. for the past 2 weeks.. i have been doing a lot of song arrangements for my group.. haha.. don noe why.. not too good at it but guess its at least some thing tt gives me a sens of satisfaction when i am finish.. all though it doesn't all sound nice.. i noe i tried.. haha..
so far.. Say yes from chage and aska have been played.. jus finish superman by five for fighting.. wow.. luv tt song.. then now on my 3 major song arragement le..
its ni zhui zhen gui.. one of my favourite ktv songs lor.. a duet.. although i can siong both parts.. hahahahaha..
and yes.. looking and the music while arranging.. really makes me luv the song more.. and i am sure i can sing it better the next time cause i realise tt when we look into details, we get better at the thing.. yup..
and wat else... oh i went to watch forbidden city last nite.. wowowowowowow....
KIT CHAN rox.. she is indeed the preide of Singapore.. overall its ok.. but i am proud tt its a local preoduction.. but a bit over rated at times oso lar..
recently.. i sometimes feel lost.. i feel tt my want, believes and dreams contradict each other..
like i luv to eat and i wan to eat and i will die not eating the stuff i like.. but again, how to be a model like tt??
then sometimes, i feel tt i have to change for the better by not being so shameless and over arrogent OR over confident.. but then.. all the self help books tt i read does not encourage me to do tt.. haha.. watever can.. i am like suppose to stay the way i am and be who i am lor.. haiz.. so confusing..
oh then wat else.. sometimes in life, we suddenly feel that we need something badly.. be it money, fame, friends or luv..
and u noe wat i need now.. seriously.. i think i need a girlfriend.. haha.. no shit.. its a GIRL friend lor.. i am kind of sick og dating guys sometimes.. so far, meeting the gays tt i noe know will only end up in jus plain sex.. which is not a good thing cause i don really enjoy it.. of course my ex, he is a little different.. no sex and a lot understanding.. which i really treasure.. little ppl understand me really well.. so i do seriously treasure the ppl who UNDERSTAND ME!!!!!!!
and do not try to say tha ti can read u like a book to me.. cause no one can unless u try to take time to understand me.. and fuck those selfish ppl who jus wan to noe who u r for the fun of it.. how shallow.. thinking tt knowing wat i like in life is understanding mem then u r wrong.. i luv money i luv fame.. but is tt understanding me?? watever.. getting to emo again..
wanna stop here before it gets to long and irritating..
and a very rude person jus want to look at wat i am writing.. OMG.. how rude and shallow can one get.. PLS FUCKING GROW UP..