nothing to be happy about....
OMG.. i haven blog for like almost a month liao.. haha.. ok ok.. lets c wat i got to share..
first and foremost.. i failed my driving test.. wat da fuck.. i could have passed if not for the mistake at the rank course.. jus so disappointed with myself lar.. so stupid.. i really want to pass the 1st time.. but it jus didn;t happen./. so really upset.. ok watever.. must try harder the next time.. can;t believe i failed still.. so so stupid..
and was jus xian the pass month.. living like there was seriously no motivation and pointless.. worked pretty much during the weekends.. must start saving le man.. i realise i can be really rich already if i had started saving.. but honestly, can;t resist buying stuff all the time.. like i jus bought a few heap CDs.. those from china.. they are pretty good.. best of all is Fan fan's one.. haha. the songs are jus so nice.. very pleasing to the ears and also the lyrics are great.. meaningful..
oh and there is this new guy in company.. nice guy.. great to talk to.. cause think he likes to hear me crap.. not really crap but we jus chat bout random stuff.. and i quite like it.. cause it gets me thinking.. the other things that i am doing everyday jus doesn't get me thinking.. OMG>. i am so wasting my life away here.. and i am so hungry now but i seriously need to lose weight man.. i am getting so fat and i am getting depressed over the fact that i am fat.. but the thing is if i don eat, i get cranky too.. life is so contradicting..
sometimes i feel really lost.. i jkus don noe wat to do in life.. i jus wan someone by my side to share the time wit me.. it sux being lonely.. i jus can;t cope wit it that well..
i am so sick and tired of doing nothing.. but yet.. i rather do nothing then doing something that is meaningless. another contradiction..
i feel like i am wasting my life away again.. like totally.. was chatting with tt special someone again on the day when i failed my driving and the sms that we exchanged was like so much its count;ess la.. jus don understand why he can;t jus call and chat. he says he's always busy and no time for himself cause he needs to company ppl.. quite sad to hear tt cause he don seem to have much time for me.. does he even miss me a little.. like at least think of me occasionally.. its jus so sad when u noe the truth.. cause the truth always hurt..
ya i do meet up wit ppl/.. there is this guy who i s aquarius and he lied to me about his age.. not tt it matters cause i don really like him in the first place.. and i jus slept wit him cause probably i was bored.. the sex was really bad.. i didn;t like it.. think he didn;t too.. and i hated myself.. doing something tt i will regret and hate.. and try not to contact him but feel like a total jerk if i don. then come another person who wans to meet up.. another old friend. but kinda of afraid now.. wat if it turns out bad again?? who says its great to be loved.. cause if its the wrong perspn who likes u, then its jus totally irritating la..
but watever.. i really wan to meet someone who understands me and who is like me.. its jus so hard.. and i hope is a gal.. i am meeting guys all the time and i am so sick of meeting guys already.. i need a woman i life.. until my friend oso think i am gay already.. but seriously i am bi., no doubt about it.. jus tt the ppl i get to meet in life now is jus simply all guys.. and it gets reaally irritating.. cause guys can get so typical.. and i jus need a good change in life.. i am so not happy now.. thought passing my driving can make me happier but it jus didn;t happen/. ok watever.. getting sad typing this stuff.. so gonna stop now..
first and foremost.. i failed my driving test.. wat da fuck.. i could have passed if not for the mistake at the rank course.. jus so disappointed with myself lar.. so stupid.. i really want to pass the 1st time.. but it jus didn;t happen./. so really upset.. ok watever.. must try harder the next time.. can;t believe i failed still.. so so stupid..
and was jus xian the pass month.. living like there was seriously no motivation and pointless.. worked pretty much during the weekends.. must start saving le man.. i realise i can be really rich already if i had started saving.. but honestly, can;t resist buying stuff all the time.. like i jus bought a few heap CDs.. those from china.. they are pretty good.. best of all is Fan fan's one.. haha. the songs are jus so nice.. very pleasing to the ears and also the lyrics are great.. meaningful..
oh and there is this new guy in company.. nice guy.. great to talk to.. cause think he likes to hear me crap.. not really crap but we jus chat bout random stuff.. and i quite like it.. cause it gets me thinking.. the other things that i am doing everyday jus doesn't get me thinking.. OMG>. i am so wasting my life away here.. and i am so hungry now but i seriously need to lose weight man.. i am getting so fat and i am getting depressed over the fact that i am fat.. but the thing is if i don eat, i get cranky too.. life is so contradicting..
sometimes i feel really lost.. i jkus don noe wat to do in life.. i jus wan someone by my side to share the time wit me.. it sux being lonely.. i jus can;t cope wit it that well..
i am so sick and tired of doing nothing.. but yet.. i rather do nothing then doing something that is meaningless. another contradiction..
i feel like i am wasting my life away again.. like totally.. was chatting with tt special someone again on the day when i failed my driving and the sms that we exchanged was like so much its count;ess la.. jus don understand why he can;t jus call and chat. he says he's always busy and no time for himself cause he needs to company ppl.. quite sad to hear tt cause he don seem to have much time for me.. does he even miss me a little.. like at least think of me occasionally.. its jus so sad when u noe the truth.. cause the truth always hurt..
ya i do meet up wit ppl/.. there is this guy who i s aquarius and he lied to me about his age.. not tt it matters cause i don really like him in the first place.. and i jus slept wit him cause probably i was bored.. the sex was really bad.. i didn;t like it.. think he didn;t too.. and i hated myself.. doing something tt i will regret and hate.. and try not to contact him but feel like a total jerk if i don. then come another person who wans to meet up.. another old friend. but kinda of afraid now.. wat if it turns out bad again?? who says its great to be loved.. cause if its the wrong perspn who likes u, then its jus totally irritating la..
but watever.. i really wan to meet someone who understands me and who is like me.. its jus so hard.. and i hope is a gal.. i am meeting guys all the time and i am so sick of meeting guys already.. i need a woman i life.. until my friend oso think i am gay already.. but seriously i am bi., no doubt about it.. jus tt the ppl i get to meet in life now is jus simply all guys.. and it gets reaally irritating.. cause guys can get so typical.. and i jus need a good change in life.. i am so not happy now.. thought passing my driving can make me happier but it jus didn;t happen/. ok watever.. getting sad typing this stuff.. so gonna stop now..
posted by SunShine at 11:32 AM
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