The after effects of a death..
wow.. its been somtime since i last posted.. haha..
anyway the past weeks have been pretty emotional too..
well one of my buddy's bro committed suicide and it jus happpened so quickly.. even now when typing tis.. i can feel guilt, sadness and some shiver in me.. haiz.. watever happen, its jus too complicated..
but i had learn a lot. and experience a lot from these.. so much.. and i am not sure if i have to courage to face it..
i learn to treasure the ppl around me much much more.. be it friends or family.. we often take them for granted.. not knowing how important they are until they are gone.
so now.. i am taking plenty of oppurtunities to spend time wit them and treasure them.. but sometimes.. i jus find it really hard to tell them i luv them.. think its a little of the asian thing too.. its not tt easy for us to jus hug and tell each other how uch we need them..
but anyway.. its really chaotic.. as in so many things happen at the same time.. cause i had to perform the RSAF open house too and its not really a good thjing cause i am so freaking tired and upset but we still have to do out thing on stage.. if u noe wat i mean.. then lots of us had to send a teary friend off at the airport as she embarks on her journey to UK to pursue her studies.. i am oh so proud of her..
and i am ashame to say tt i onli learnt o treasure wat i have now onli when they are gone.. haiz..
then there are some happy things going on too la.. like my friends' commisioning at SAFTI.. haha// so many guys in NO.1.. OMG.. steam.. and the best part was the dinner after tt.. went to 85 to eat. and u noe wat.. i had never felt so happy and lucky in such a long time.. jus being able to find time to eat there wit my mates are life's best simple pleasures.. and then after dinner.. we went to cheesecake cafe to chill.. and it was like the best place we could be tt nite.. so much laughter and emotions.. well.. can c tt everyone jus needed a break like tt.. where we can jus be ourselves and not get stress over anything.. it rox man..
after tt nite.. i send everyone a sms.. a sms filled wit wat i reallyfelt and telling them how much i needed them in my life..
oh and there was a really cute waiter.. haha.. couldnot really enjoy the hot guys at RSAF open house cause wasn;t in the mood.. but now.. finally i can enjoy.. haha.. but guess wat, i saw him again the next day but he was with his GF.. haiz.. thought he wasn;t straight la.. giving me the look somemore.. and his GF is not even pretty or wat.. its terrible.. wat happened?? maybe he's bi.. haha.. must be..
so much have happen and i jus feel totally tired after all these.. but watever.. i need to go get work done now.. luv it..
anyway the past weeks have been pretty emotional too..
well one of my buddy's bro committed suicide and it jus happpened so quickly.. even now when typing tis.. i can feel guilt, sadness and some shiver in me.. haiz.. watever happen, its jus too complicated..
but i had learn a lot. and experience a lot from these.. so much.. and i am not sure if i have to courage to face it..
i learn to treasure the ppl around me much much more.. be it friends or family.. we often take them for granted.. not knowing how important they are until they are gone.
so now.. i am taking plenty of oppurtunities to spend time wit them and treasure them.. but sometimes.. i jus find it really hard to tell them i luv them.. think its a little of the asian thing too.. its not tt easy for us to jus hug and tell each other how uch we need them..
but anyway.. its really chaotic.. as in so many things happen at the same time.. cause i had to perform the RSAF open house too and its not really a good thjing cause i am so freaking tired and upset but we still have to do out thing on stage.. if u noe wat i mean.. then lots of us had to send a teary friend off at the airport as she embarks on her journey to UK to pursue her studies.. i am oh so proud of her..
and i am ashame to say tt i onli learnt o treasure wat i have now onli when they are gone.. haiz..
then there are some happy things going on too la.. like my friends' commisioning at SAFTI.. haha// so many guys in NO.1.. OMG.. steam.. and the best part was the dinner after tt.. went to 85 to eat. and u noe wat.. i had never felt so happy and lucky in such a long time.. jus being able to find time to eat there wit my mates are life's best simple pleasures.. and then after dinner.. we went to cheesecake cafe to chill.. and it was like the best place we could be tt nite.. so much laughter and emotions.. well.. can c tt everyone jus needed a break like tt.. where we can jus be ourselves and not get stress over anything.. it rox man..
after tt nite.. i send everyone a sms.. a sms filled wit wat i reallyfelt and telling them how much i needed them in my life..
oh and there was a really cute waiter.. haha.. couldnot really enjoy the hot guys at RSAF open house cause wasn;t in the mood.. but now.. finally i can enjoy.. haha.. but guess wat, i saw him again the next day but he was with his GF.. haiz.. thought he wasn;t straight la.. giving me the look somemore.. and his GF is not even pretty or wat.. its terrible.. wat happened?? maybe he's bi.. haha.. must be..
so much have happen and i jus feel totally tired after all these.. but watever.. i need to go get work done now.. luv it..
posted by SunShine at 10:41 AM
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