Not a good time now..

I received a nice msg from one of my besties tis morning, asking me how i am after looking at my previous post.
I am alright.
definately not at my best.
but i am taking one step at a time.
jus tired and dis-heartened.

there are many reasons why..
3 failed interviews, 2 from SIA, and 1 from Emirates.
It really does not help when ppl come up to me and say, OMG, u r so suited for the job.. OR, i am sure u will get the job ONE LA!!
And neither does it feel better, when u come out of the group interview, and ppl tell u.. OMG, U SPOKE SO WELL!! HALO!! tell me something i don noe, like, why DIDN'T i get through then, when i could almost convince the president to let me be vice-president..

oh well, thats life, u don always get wat u wan..
but of course thats not the only thing.

the usual, relationship problems.. i mean not even in a relationship yet, i should say the dating jungle out there. is jus... haiz.. disappointing.
imagine meeting someone really nice, smiles at u all the time, and after a few days, finally got to exchange numbers, and start chatting.
the next thing u noe. the person is attached..
i mean the person is already long attached, but has no intentions of telling you! isn't tt disgusting!!!
and thank god i asked..
so now, watever that is going on, is jus plain flirting. the person is attached, and the person jus wans to flirt. so lets jus play along i guess.

then i got a phone call, from my beloved fren from germany, telling me he is visiting again.
yes i am all excited.
but no i am not happy at all wit his plans here.
he is treating me like shit..
and i am disappointed..

more more more to come..
my grandma. is really sick.. like terribly sick..
jus hoping she can get pass CNY, and then we can bring her to the hospital and stuff.
its quite scary seeing her everyday.
not noeing when she wil collapsed or pass out.
it is obvious she wans to get pass this CNY too, and is jus pressing on so that the family don have to worry for her..

oh yes.. and then, i am really dreading CNY, cause i will be asked the following disgusting questions..
1.) so u grad liao, wat u wan to do now?
2.) got galfren a not?
and then hearing things that are totally unncessary
1.) aiyoh, the economy so bad now.. hard to find job la.. take ur time (HALO, U GIVE ME MONEY HUH, TAKE MY TIME?!?!)
2.) don be picky la. jus do anything 1st lor.. ( This is the ultimate statement that will force me to roll my eyes at them.)

basically its not tt i am not trying.. i am trying. but its not fun getting rejected all the time.
and also, i am not picky about salary and stuff, i jus wna to do stuff tt will make me genereally happy, and i don wan to start a job, noein tt i will hate it. wats the point!!

anyway, i have went online and send my resumes to the following companies, in which i haven got a reply yet.

1.) IR - sentosa
2.) IR - Marina
3.) Marriott Vacation club
4.) Food republic
5.) New urban male..

so jus wish me luck, and pray for me if u have time..
jus crossing my fingers for a better tomolo..


220109, THU, 1523hrs